Mene Mene Tekel Upharsin

Dancing rainbowed lights filled the small club room, hitting every dancing person and changing the color of their skin. Bodies swarmed in this warm place, this hot and cold place filled with hot and cold people. My body swayed in the middle of the dancefloor. Beads of sweat layering my skin, flowing white silk dancing around my legs. Curly fire dancing around my face. Laughter loose on my lips. The cluster of dancing bodies were lost in a trance and drunken happiness. Hints and smells of laughter and alcohol hung in the air all around me and flowed through me like electricity. I couldn't stop dancing.

The lights all go blue and "Take My Hand" by Alexi Windler fills the club. Each leather-clad dancer pairs up with anyone around them, slowly embracing each other, holding them close, whispering sweet nothings in their ears. I inch away from the dancefloor, uncomfortable as I found no one to sway with. Cold fingers catch my wrist, pulling me sideways into the arms of a beautiful man with sapphire eyes and a beautiful smile. One of his arms crept across my waist as the other held my hand and our fingers were entwined. He had long, jet black hair that perfectly framed his handsome face. His skin was as pale as death and as beautiful as life. He wore tight, leather pants that clung to his long legs and a fishnet shirt that hung loosely off of his torso. I could not move, my head was spinning. Who was this gorgeous man?

We started to dance, he pulling me tight against his muscular chest. Our bodies moving slowly and I loving every minute of it. He stroked my hair, my face as he detached his hand from mine. I couldn't help but to smile. He lifted my chin with a devilish smile playing on his lips. Seductive eyes, enchanting smile. I was lost in fantasy.

His picture perfect face moved closer to my neck, kissing it ever so softly and gently. His breath waltzed across my bare flesh and had sent shivers up and down my spine. A moment later, I felt as if I were floating on a cloud, lost in a dream that I had often wished for all my life. My body was numb and we were still dancing.

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday dear Frankie!

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy birthday Frank! I hope you get every little thing you wanted! And I hope you have loads of birthday fun! Because we all know that you deserve it!

And Happy Halloween!

Yesterday was amazing. Absolutely amazing.

So after school, me, Deanna, and Sofia met up in Cafeteria A so we can go to the Junior High and meet up with Jess. But it was freezing out and Sofia needed her coat, so we were walking to the Interdisiplinary Wing to go to her locker, and this kid thought we were following him. He was like "Why are you following me?1 You fucking stalkers!" and Sofia turned to us, after he started to run away, and she was like "Haha, I wanna chase that kis down!" So she chased him all the way to the Interdis. Wing and that kid looked so frightening, but I had to laugh because I remembered that he was the kid who asked me for my autograph when I was in seventh grade. So, Sofia got her jacket and then we left and circled the Senior High just to get to the Junior High. But we thought we weren't allowed in so we were standing outside like idiots until one girl also from the Senior High said that we were allowed in, haha. But we only went in to see Deanna's old teacher. But I did see that asshole, I mean my ex friend, that I really hate now.

But we met up with Jess outside of the school and Deanna's mom picked us up and took us to their house. We went inside, leaving our shizzle in the minivan, and just hung out because we had to wait until Kirby was finished with Colorguard because she was going with us too. And we thought we were taking the train to the concert, but her dad showed up so we didn't have to (Deanna's dad, not Kirby's lol). But before that, we stopped off at Wawa to get some food and stuff before we left, and I wasn't really hungry and I only wanted pepsi and Deanna, her mom , and Sofia was all like "You really need to eat something, you're stick thin." And just randomly got chips and they wanted me to eat something more but I wasn't really hungry because I was too damn excited!

So, Deanna's mom picked up Kirby at 5:30 and they came back so Kirby can change and what not. And we all decided to write Tokio Hotel letters in hopes that we met them last night (you'll have to find out if we did or didn't a little further down haha). We left at like 5:45 or 6 and we drove all the way down to the Electric factory. But on the way, we made signs and everything (mine said "Rescue Me" with little hearts with wings and crowns on it) and Kirby, oh my God, she cracks me up! She had her sign on the window, being held by her arm and she looks away for a second and it disappears. And she was like "Where did my poster go?!" And the window was open! Haha...it went out the window and onto the street! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! lol.

We got there at a good time, but it was freezing and we thought we weren't going to be in line for that long of a time, but we did, and everyone else besides me, Deanna's dad and her mom, left their jacket in the car and they were FREEZING! Poor Sofia was shaking so badly! I was hugging her the whole time and everything! I felt so bad! But she was so cute, haha. And we randomly took pictures of us waiting in line (I have to wait for Deanna to send me the pics).

But we got up to the place where they were taking the tickets and feeling us up incase we have anything pointy and what not and I got inside first and it looked so awesome! I LOVE the Electric Factory! (yes, it was my first time there haha). Sofia and I randommly left them and tried to get through the edge of the stage but we couldn't. So Jess and Kirby and Deanna found us and we formed a chain (and the people behind us were helping) and we tried to push our way to the front, but we couldn't, haha. So, we snuck tot he side and tried to do it there, we couldn't get front front, but we got REALLY close! Sofia crawled under peoples legs, that's how fun sized she is! I ended up chatting with this awesome girl named Lara before the show, she's really awesome. I made a new friend!! Haha.

And before the show started, they were bouncing beach balls throughout the standing room and I got hit in the face! lmao! So did Sof! And we saw Tom so many times behind the curtain, I got so happy, lol. And a lot of people thought that they were starting when really it was just a random song playing, lmao.

And then, they came on, and I screamed and everything. I forget what song they played first, but I remember it felt like me getting punched in the stomach and my ears were like exploding. And I loved it. I was dancing, jumping, screaming, singing, crying (yes I cried), and frantically waving to them.

And you know what's funny? Before and after the show, they showed the Phillies game and it was so funny. AND THE PHILLIES WON THE WORLD FUCKING SERIES!!! LET'S GO PHILLIES! LET'S GO! *stomp stomp stomp* Sorry, random, I know, but no school tomorrow basically haha.

Anyhoo, getting back to the Tokio Hotel concert. I loved it! I was msiling so much my cheeks hurt! And I lost my voice and I got hurt! (My angel wing necklace dug into my chest and now I have a bruise shaped like an angel wing on my chest). I remember Bill saying "PHILADELPHIA!!!!" (so cutely by the way) and everyone cheering and he had a microphone in his hand for "scream' and I just really loved it!!!!!

But....during "Live Every Second' Sofia blacked out and the security dudes had to carry her out of the Factory. She was in and out of consciousness and I couldn't be with her, I was in tears. I was so scared but Lara told me that she would be okay. She is now, though, but I was so scared!

But, I cheered up a little when Tokio Hotel played their first encore song, which was "Rescue Me" and I've been trying to hold up my sign all night and I was waiting for the song to play. And it did. And I held it high. I was the only one who was holding up a sign during that song. Tom and Bill both looked at me and my sign and smiled. I fangirled. Then, their second encore song "Durch Den Munson (I spelled the German Monsoon wrong but yeah lol)" I just flipped, I love the German version more than the English version.

Then when they really ended the show, that's when the Phillies won and the Factory went up in cheers! WOOOOO!!!!!

Deanna and I found Sofia and we went outside where TH was going to leave out of, and we waited for a few moments for them to come out, and they did and I waved frantically at them, but they didn't meet their fans, they just went to their tour bus. So Me, Sofia, Deanna, Jess, and Kirby and a bunch of other fans ran to the bus and I was like right in front of the window where Bill was and I wa slike screaming. And then he went away for a second and people were looking for where he was (in the bus obv.) and I saw him first and I was like "BILL!!!!" and waved and blew kisses and he waved and blew kisses back, I was so happy. But the bus started to drive away, and I promised myself I wouldn't fangirl any longer, but I did. And Me and everyone ran after the tour bus, and I was in heels. And when the bus stopped at the red light, I saw Tom and Gustav and I was screaming for them and they waved to me and everyone. Georg was nowhere insight. That made me sad because I love him (and he looked extra good during the concert too haha).

But they finally drove away and I was still excited. But we walked back to the van, and a group of guys who we walked by screamed "GO PHILLIES!" at us and we cheered. And then they screamed "GO TOKIO HOTEL!!!" and we cheered even louder! And I threw my arms up in excitement and my shirt kind of went really up and it was embarassing, lol.

But when we were leaving to drive Sofia home, there was a large crowd of Temple students celebrating our victory over the Rays, it was hilarious. Well, until the riots started, haha.

Welps, that was my day yesterday, hahaha. Yes, I fangirled majorly and I'm soo embarassed because I promised myself that I wouldn't do that, so I broke my own damn promise...to MYSELF! hahaha....jeez...

Ville POV part 3. I JUST posted part two in the journal before this...so if you didn't read that one...go read that one before you read this one!!!

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"Ville, I have to tell you about my dream, but not here." Brandy said all in one panicked breath. She looked panicked, scared for our childrens future, as did I. I couldn't think of anything to tell her to calm her down. So I just said,

"Alright. Lets go." I held my hand out to her so that we can "poof" out of her and to our house. All she did was look at my hand, thinking.

"No," she said, shaking her head. "I'll leave out the front door and you make yourself invisible until we get up the sreet." I nodded and my hand feel back to my side. Imade myself invisible to her in under a second. Brandy slowly opened the door and walked out. I followed her into the loving room where Mikey, Alicia, Gerard, and LynZ were all on the couch watching a program on FUSE. They looked up at her as she entered the room and Brandy waved to Gerard and LynZ.

"Call me when you get home," Alicia called out to Brandy. She is really a true friend to Brandy. "So I know that you and the babies are safe." Brandy said alright and shut the door behind her. I opened it slowly and snuck out, closing it gently behind me. She basically was already halfway up the street when the closed the door. It looked like she was running from something or someone or me.

"Slow down," I called out from behind her. She turned and saw me jog up to her. As soon as I caught up to her, I threw my arms around her and pulled her close to me. I pulled her back after a few moments and kissed her. I still felt undeniably horrible for making her cry. "I still feel horrible for mkaing you cry." She smiled lightly and we bagan to walk.

Brandy began to tell me about her dream that she had had that night. I could tell by the tone of her voice that she was frightened for our kids. She knows that William is going to kidnap them and she doesn't want that to happen, and neither do I. She looked at her feet, then up at me with tears in her eyes. "Ville, I'm scared." She whimpered. I had never ever really heard Brandy ever admit to being undeniably scared.

"I know," I said through my teeth. "I am too."

The next couple things she had asked me where of if I can die and who are Reaper enemies and why vampires are our enemies. Ultimately, the last thing she asked me before we enetered our street was,

"What do we do?" She placed her hands on her stomach, as if she were protecting them from inside the womb

I didn't really know what to do myself. So all I said was, "The only thing we can do now is go to the Elders and see what they can do."

Basically the rest of the walk home was silent between us. I was left powerless to my thoughts. I kept thinking back to the look on Williams face and how I wanted to wipe off that look on his face for good. My thoughts were completely murderous and full of rage and revenge. If the Elders couldn't do anything, then I would. And it wouldn't be pretty.

"Ville," I heard Brandy sob from behind me as we entered our front door. I could feel the horrid panic in her voice and whirled around to face her. "I think he already has them, or at least Desdemona."

"What?" I asked, ushering her into the living room and sitting her on the couch. "What do you mean?" I questioned her.

"You said that he said that Desdemona looks just like me," she started to cry. "How does he know that unless he saw her, unless he already kidnapped them from the future?" The murderous thoughts popped into my mind again as did that look on his face. I wanted to rip out his throat or sand off his face.

Brandy slowly rose from the couch. I looke dup and saw that face look at her from the hallway. She couldn't see him, but I could. I jumped up but she was already headed towards the phone. I kept my eyes on William and he had a crooked smile on his face. He was staring at her stomach. She picked up the phone and started to dial the numbers. Another figure emerged from the shadows, a woman, but I couldn't quite see who it was. For a moment, she hesitated with what she did next. Brandy froze, her hands shaking, dropping the phone. her water broke and she blacked out.

I ran quickly to her side. William and his compainion(sp?) stood there, watching. I  pulled Brandy up into my arms, and used my Reaper powers to get her to the hospital. She had already started to go into labor as soon as we got to the hospital. She was awake, well, in and out of concsiousness. But as the contractions got closer and closer together, she was awake longer and longer. We were already in the room, she was on the bed and there was already a nurse by her side helping her. Dr.Johnson came in to deliver the babies.

Brandy was screaming in pain, pushing the babies out, sweating bullets. She held my hand, squeezing it like there was no tomorrow every time she had to push and everything. The lights in the room started to dim. But I ignored it and continued to help her with the delivery.

But the door to the room busted open and in walked William and Chris and the female compainion from earlier. kaiden was already out and the murse was cleaning him up. Dr.Johnson was slightly distracted by this the new company. he started to tell them to get out, but I told him to focus on the baby and I would take care of the problem. I approached William and punched him across the face. Chris had pushed the woman to the side and hid her from me like I was going to attack her. But before I could reach Chris and the woman, William hit me back, hard, sending me to the ground. Desdemona had just been born. She was screaming and another nurse had taken her, protecting her. I was grateful for that.

But William had approached Brandy, who was too tired to fight against him.He took her face in his hands and kissed her. I pulled him away quickly, punching him again. But that time, he, Chris, and the woman left. But Brandy started to choke, she was running out of air. Her heartrate increased a lot. Blood started to come out of her mouth, and she passed out again. The doctors stablized her, thinking that she had a seizure. But she hadn't. Everything was fine. But she wouldn't wake up.

to be continued...

Ville's POV part 2...hope it ain't shit XD

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I was completely silent on our way over to Mikey and Alicia's house. I kept thinking about seeing William at the doctors office. The way he looked at her...I just wanted to fucking kill him, fucking kill him. And now he knows about the twins. he knew she was pregnant before, but like the rest of us, we thought there was only one baby, now two. He has something planned, and I knew it.

"I'm so happy! We're having TWINS! TWO! DOUBLE!" Brandy rambled on, giggling and bouncing around happily. If only she knew. "Oh, Ville! This is so WONDERFUL! Way to go! Thanks for two! Oh! I have an idea! You want to hear it?" She asked me happily. I couldn't look at her, I couldn't even blink. I only had two things on my mind then. One being finding William and killing him. The other being protecting Brandy and the twins. "Okay, well. I'm going to tell you anyways. I was thinking that i can name the girl, and we already have the name, and you can give her the middle name. And that you can name the boy and I can give him the middle name. Do you like that idea?"

I couldn't reply to her, but I do have to admit, I liked the idea. I had started to blink again, mostly because I felt my eyes start to dry a little, and they stung. Brandy's mood had suddenly changed. She sat back and slumped in her seat.

"Humph," she said with an angry tone. I quickly looked at her. She was pouting. We rode in silence for a few minutes before Brandy finally said, "Aren't you happy about the twins?"

I sighed and continued to stare at the road. Of course I was happy about the twins, I was going to be a father of two. I was estatic on the inside, but rage over-powered it. Rage against William. Mikey and Alicia's house was getting closer and closer to us. I knew I was hurting Brandy with my silence, but I couldn't say anything until we were outside of Alicia and Mikey's house. I pulled up in front of it, and turned to her.

"Of course. Now get out."I said harshly, too harshly even for me. She got out of the car, but with a forlorn look on her face. I wanted to get out of the car myself and hug her and explain things, but I had to take care of William first. So I drove off, leaving her on the sidealk, staring at the car as I drove away.

I could feel that William had never really left me. I knew that he was either following me or in the car itself. So I drove to the Grocery Store and waited outside the store near the Pepsi machines, and waited. At least ten minutes later, William still wasn't there, but I saw Mikey and Gerard approach the store. But William sudden;y appeared with a smirk on his face.

"Grocery Store?" William laughed humorlessly. "Don't you want to kill me in private?" Which was true, I did want to kill him, but I don't have the power and neither does he. But, I needed to know why is he doing this to us again? I know it was stupid at the time for me not to report him to the Elders, but I just needed to know.

"Why are you doing this to us? Why won't you stop?" I shot off at him. He only smiled back in a reply. he started to pace. I looked behind William and saw Gerard and Mikey staring at us, but I disregarded it.

"Why am I doing this to you? Why won't I stop? Silly questions for such a smart Reaper." William started off. "You know why, Ville," He voice was full of acid and hate. "She's supposed to be mine." His, right. He isn't the one who's married to her, he isn't the one she loves. But it didn't stop him from supposedly loving her.

"She's not yours," I said coolly, trying not to draw attention. "She doesn't love you and she never will, William. Sooner or later, you're going to have to deal with that." William stopped pacing and shot me an evil look. He moved closer to me, face to face, nose to nose.

"She will love me, Ville," he started off. "She will be mine," he paused and a wicked smile grew upon his deathly face. "Either that, or little Desdemona will be mine. You know, she does look a lot like Brandy." William laughed and my anger had shown through. I felt my face turn red and I felt the fire burning inside me.

"You will stay away frommy daughter, my son, and my wife! And I swear to God that if you harm them in any way, I will find a way to murder you with my bare hands!" I threatened. William laughed a menacing laughed and I noticed that Gerard and Mikey had hurried inside.

"I'd love to see you try." Was the last thing William said before he disappeared. I stomped my way back into the car and drove off angrily. I didn't have a specific place in mind. I just needed to drive and calm down. I drove all the way to the other side of the town. I needed to call someone and vent and there was really only one person I could think to call.

I called Ray around two o'clock after a couple hours of sitting in my car and listening to music to help organize my mind. I had told him about everything that I had basically just told you, and the only thing he said to me was, "Dude, it sounds like you need to drive your ass all the way over to Mikey and Alicia's house and be with Brandy. Apologize to her and tell her everything. Bye." He was right, I needed to be with her. I needed to protect her and our children.

It was around four o'clock when I had gotten to the house. I would've been there sooner but traffic was horrible. But I look back now and kick myself for not magically poofing to her. But I'm kind of happy that I didn't poof to her. I crept outside their house and I peeked through the living room window and I had seen that Brandy was fast asleep on the couch while the others were watching a movie. I made myself invisible to them and just waited outside until it had gotten dark. It was Midnight when I had decided to go check on Brandy. Again, she was fast asleep, and in a deep dream. She kept muttering things under her breath in her sleep, mostly my name and the names Desdemona and Kaiden.

I had fallen asleep on the cahir by the window. What had waken me up was the sound of the alarm clock going off and Brandy groaning. I watched Brandy slowly get up. She stood up and started to stare off into space. She was thinking of something confusing in her head. I knwo that because she burrowed her eyebrows. Her facial expressions kept changing. Confusion, pain, sadness. I wanted to hold her close to me and tell her everything would be alright.

But then Alicia came in and interupted her thought. They exchanged a few words and Alicia led Brandy to the kitchen for some food. I followed them quietly into the kitchen. I didn't stay in the kitchen with them, I just waited in the bathroom knowing that Brandy would need to use the bathroom after she ate. She usually needs to go to the bathroom after she eats.

I heard her in the hallway outside of the bathroom with Mikey and Alicia. I heard mikey offer her a ride, she declined saying that she needed a walk. I also heard her say that she needed to use the bathroom. I was right. She entered the bathroom, gently closing the door. I turned around as she did her business, she at least deserved her privacy as she went to the bathroom. I heard the toilet flush and the water turn on. She was looking down as she washed her hands and I made myself visible to her again. She looked up at the mirror and gave a little scream.

"Ville, you asshat! You can't scare a pregnant woman!" She yelled at me.

"Sssssshhhh," I shushed her, hoping to god that neither Mikey or Alicia heard her scream or yell. "I'm sorry I scared you, but I really need to talk to you." I whispered to her.

"About what? Are you going to apologize for what you did to me yesterday? Do you know that you made me cry?" She hissed. My heart ached when she told me that I  made her cry.

"I made you cry?" I whispered. I never wanted to make her cry. "Oh, I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I didn't want to make you cry."I said sweetly and sincerely.

"Well, you did. And then I had a horrible dream. You made me think that you left me! Why the hell would you do that?" Her voice had gotten squeaky, but I could see that she was trying to clam herself down. "Why?"

I was silent for a few moments, contemplating on what exactly I would say to her. I sighed, looking away from her beautiful face. "Brandy, I'm sorry that I made you cry and feel that way," I began. "But, I had to leave. I needed to do something," I looked back at her, her big eyes widened. I stroked her face with my hand. She was confused. "I saw William at the doctors office yesterday. I got fed up with him following us everywhere. But he knows we're having twins now. And the look on his face frightened me. I dropped you off here, So I can go find him and confront him myself. I-"

"You did what?" She interupted in a worried whisper. I held my hand up, motioning for her to let me explain myself.

"I went to the store and waited outside for him. I knew that he had followed me, I could feel it. And when he finally did show himself to me, we had a confrontation," I paused and thought back to the incident. "We were arguing over you. You and the twins. He said that if...if you don't go to him after they are born, he will make...he...he said taht he'd kidnap them and make Desdemona his wife instead of you. He said-"

"That pedophile! She's just a baby! Not even born! Eeew!" She interupted again with digust.

"Brandy, you don't understand. Remember when William sent us four years into the past?" She nodded and I continued. "Well, he can send himself or anyone else into the future too. Brandy, he said Desdemona looks just like you."

To be continued.....

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I'm separating his POV into three POV's so I'm about to write the third one in a new journal.

Yayz, another chapter! And yes, tis William Beckett icon thingy. I do actually just love William (though he kidnapped my kids and what not lmao!) But you have to admit, he is adorable....just look at him...awww....lol...welps, I hope this isn't shitty! And you'll also find out why Atilla's pic is there...hahaha

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"Bring her in, then." Ville sighed. He's so tired, so exhausted. I wish that this would all just end right now. Ville doesn't deserve this, none of us do. But I can't help but to think if maybe we're supposed to go through this. Maybe it's a test of our love, our strength as a couple. Maybe. Maggie nodded and walked back through my wall and into her room. I wonder if her husband and kids are still there, or if they left when Trixie (that's the witches name) arrived. I looked at all the other Reapers in the room. Their faces were hard, thoughtful, and sad in their eyes. Were they all good friends of Ville? I knew wiL is, but I didn't know that Ville knew Travis McCoy, Hayley Williams and HannaBeth. Then again, I didn't know they were all Reapers. I wonder who else is a Reaper. Audrey Kitching? Amy Lee? David Cook? Maybe.

My hospital room opened and Maggie came back through my wall. A lovely woman with fair skin, platinum hair and big, beautiful eyes came into the room. And I had recognized her instantly.

"Wait," I said to the witch who had put her things down on the floor. "Aren't you Atilla? The model?" I asked. She looks a hell of a lot like Atilla, I mean really. Maybe Atilla has a twin? Twin witch? That's be a little strange, I guess. Though I should be used to strange now.

"Yep. That's me.' She sighed with a smile.I raised in eyebrow in slight confusion. The model/witch rolled her eyes and continued to explain. "I go by the name Trixie in the Supernatural world and Atilla is my model name." Hannabeth had gotten up and went to go sit next to wiL. Atilla took the empty seat next to me and stared at me. "Okay, so you need to go back into your body right?" I nodded. "Okay..."

"Wait," Hayley cut in quickly. "Do I still need to make her visible to you. I mean as a soul?" She asked Ville. Ville pondered that for a second and decided.

"Well, my explanation of things might take a while. So yes, and then Atilla-or should I call you Trixie?- can put her soul back." He said. Hayley nodded, taking both of my hands, closing her eyes, and started to concentrate.

"Call me whatever you like. I answer to both names." Atilla said curtly. Then she said, "So I gather that she doesn't know what happened to her?" She asked aloud. Ville and I both nodded. Atilla picked up her bag from the floor and pulled out a notepad and a purple-inked pen. "Okay, go on with the explanation."

"What's the pen and paper for?" Hannabeth chimed in. I was just thinking the same thing.

"I have to take notes so I can remember correctly," Trixie sighed. She looked up at Ville," Explain now please?"

He nodded, and started to speak.

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*The whole explaination thing....Ville's POV (other peoples point of view besides my own won't happen very often, just to let you know)*

It was a few days ago when Brandy and I had found out that we were going to have twins. The night before, or should I say the early morning, had been quite dramatic. It was after the little party, I guess you would call it that, and all of our friends had left. I had fallen asleep, and I thought that she had too, but I was wrong. I woke up and found that she wasn't by my side. I was panicked. I had gotten up and I realized that the light downstairs was on. I found her on the couch folding the laundry. She was crying.

I walked up behind her and asked, "Do you want a tissue?" She jumped back in fright but I had ignored that and went to sit next to her, moving the already folded towels out of the way so I can sit next to her. I stared at her face, painted with tears, but she didn't look back at me.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I whispered toher as calmly as I could. I knew there was something wrong with her, mostly because when she would cry, she would cry on my shoulder instead of cry while doing the laundry. She shook her head no, and I moved closer to her, trying to comfort her with my close proximity. Something was really bothering her at that point, and I had to push the answer out of her, gently. "Why? What's wrong? Please tell me, Brandy." My heart ached knowing that whatever was going on, she couldn't trust me enough to tell me, or even look at me, or so I thought. She did look at me, right after I said her name. She was choking back tears and sniffles, her face was fo red. I felt so awful. She looked away quickly, but I had to hold her gaze. So, I took her head in my hand and gently made her look at me. I kissed her and said, "Please?"

"Promise not to get mad?" Brandy said in the most sad, childish whimper. I thought back to what Alicia had said to me earlier, about Brandu always being afraid that I would get mad at her. I had to let her know, that i would never get mad at her.

"I'd never get mad at you." I said to her. She inhaled deeply, and held in that single breath for a few moments before slowly releasing it.

"I didn't tell you this earlier because I didn't want to burden you. But...I saw William earlier, at Borders. He was that creepy dude that was staring at me." She looked up at me with a c=shocked lookonher face. I guess the look on her face gave away all of my guilt because I saw him too. I had to tell her, so I did.

"I know," I said. "I saw him too." her face went from shocked, to angry. I could tell that in any moment, she'd start yelling at me.

"What do you mean you saw him too?!" Her voice had gotten higher in pitch. I wasn't used to her yelling, and I flinched. I had sighed, leaning back into the couch, crossing my arms, ready to take in all of her yelling. I guessed it was her hormones raging, because even if she wasn't pregnant and I told her that, she wouldn't have yelled like that, or at me. But I started to get angry too, not at her, but at myself, I guess I was in the same state of mind. She hadn't told me about her seeing William, and I hadn't told her. I could clearly see she was mad at herself for it, and I was mad at myself for it too.

"Well," I said with clentched teeth. "Well, I didn't want to worry you. I thought he was showing himself to me, not you. I was going to take care of it this morning, or yesterday I guess, but you disappeared and I got worried." And I didn't tell her the reason I was really worried when I didn't find her next to me that morning, and it was mostly about William. I was scared that he had gotten to her or something until I found her note.

"I left a note...and stuff," Brandy said, defending herself for that mornings incident. Then she asked, "Okay, when did you start seeing him? Yesterday? Last week?" And I knew then that I had to tell her the truth. I was keeping it from her for so long.

"About three months ago," I said ina quiet tone. Brandy gasped, loudly might I add, in anger and surprise.

"THREE MONTHS AGO?!" She yelled at me. I flicnhed again, but was also shocked, again, by her yelling. I nodded and sank even further into the couch. "Why didn't you tell me or take care of it then?" She had asked me with a quieter tone. I shrugged, but was confused by her question. Why didn't I tell her? Why didn't she tell me about Borders?

"Why didn't you tell me about Borders?" I said with a furois-and shocking-amount of acid in my voice. I turned myself toward her, in a very imiatating stance. I was expecting myself to react this way. "Alicia told me, so I knew before hand. And she also told me that you don't tell me things anymore because you think I'll get mad at you? Why do you think I'm going to get mad at you? That's childish!" I raised my voice a bit too. And I also spoke too much of my thoughts. I guess I knew that that would hurt her  alittle. She didn't answer me, and her lips tightened into a hard line and I could see tears start to well up in her eyes. Iknew that she was either mad or really hurt.

She stood up instantaneously, and wobbled a little. Though I might have been mad, I didn't want her to fall and get hurt. So I sprang up and grabbed her elbow to balance her out. I could see that she was getting tired, but we needed to finsih this, and not wait for the next morning. But she ripped her elbow from my grasp and started to head towards the steps. I followed her, mostly because she was angry and tired and Brandy is a very clumsy person. I didn't want her to fall and get hurt.

"Where are you going?" I finally asked in an exasperated tone of voice.

"I'm trying to storm out," She said in a harsh tone. "And I'm tired."

"We're not done here, Brandy. We need to talk about his." She turned to face me as I said that. I was very close to her, so when she faced me, she was actually facing my chest. But I could still tell that she was about to cry, mostly because she was breathing heavily.

"I don't know why I didn't tell you about Borders. I don't know why I always think you'll get mad at me. Maybe it's because when my mom got married the second time, she married a complete asshole who used to beat us and with every single thing we did, we did it wrong. He'd get mad, Ville, all the time. And now we have a baby on the way and maybe I'm scared that being a father will change you for the worst. Maybe that's it. Maybe I thiknyou're going to be like my step-father." It broke my heart when she said that. I'd never hurt her, or our kids. Ever. I couldn't help but to pull her close to me and kiss the top of her head like I'd always do.

"I will never be like your step-father, Brandy. You know why? Because I love you and I would never do anything to hurt you." I told her in a sob. She started to cry too. Brandy pulled back and looked at me, looking liek she was trying to find a way to change the subject.

"Um, I have a doctors appointment tomor-today, at nine. Are you uh coming with me? We can find out the sex of the baby." She slightly smiled, trying to lighten the mood. I couldn't help but to smile back at her and kiss her forehead.

About a couple hours later, after we went to bed, we went to the doctors office for the appointment obviously. We wer ein the waiting room and Brandy had snabbed an AP issue and flipped to a page that was advertising Jessica Louise clothing. One of Brandy's favorite models was in the ad. Audrey Kitching I believe.

"Look! Look! It's Audrey Kitching! She's amazing!" She said to me, pointing out the picture. I took the magazine from her and examined the picture.

"She's pretty," I said. And a thought came to my head as I thought about the baby, and the name Audrey. Brandy and I were talking abut baby names earlier, so I had to tell her my thoughts. "Audrey is a cute middle name. 'Desdemona Audrey Valo', it has a ring to it," she smiled. "And if it's a boy, then it would be 'Kaiden Aubrey Valo'. That has a ring to it too."

"That would be badass," she said with the smile still painted on her face.

The nurse came out and called us in and told us to wait in room number four for the doctor. But the doctor was already in the room waiting for us. He wasn't really our normal doctor, but he looked like a nice gentleman. "Hello," he said shaking our hands. "I'm doctor Johnson. Are you here to find the sex of your baby?" Brandy and I both nodded and he contiued. "Alright, just lie on the table, I'll get the gel and the ultrasound is right here." The doctor left for a second and I had helped Brandy on the table.

He cam eback in and put the gel on Brandys stomach and a few seconds later, we heard the sound of our baby's heartbeat.

"There's the baby...oh, well that's strange." The doctor said. Brandy started to panic; her eyes darted to the screen, studying it.

"What? What is it? What's wrong with my baby?" She cried fantically. I squeezed her hand gently, to calm her down. My my eyes averted to the window behind the unltrasound, where I saw a familiar looking Reaper. William, leaning against the window pane, with a crooked smile on his face.

"Nothing's wrong with your baby but haha...there's two heads." I heard the doctor chuckle. But I hadn't acknowledged him, I kept my eyes on William.

"My baby has two heads?" I heard Brandy screech from right next to me. A moment later she exhaled and said, "Oh my God! Ville, we're having twins!!! We're having a Desdemona AND a Kaiden...wait, what's the sexes before I say that." she said in a pleasant tone. I didn't acknowledge her either. Williams smile had gotten bigger. His eyes were set on Brandy. He was amused by her, I could tell by the look in his eyes.

"You're right, boy and girl.' The doctor said to her.

"Ville! We're going to have a Desdemona and a Kaiden!" William gave me a coy smile. I knew what was on his mind and it terrified me. I couldn't help but to look terrified.

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sorry I'm stopping her for tonight, I'm so tired I needs some sleep...lol

Oh boy, today was....off....for me. It's really hard to explain why, but it was. Well, for one thing, when I came into school this morning, my table was gone! I would sit on that table every morning, I even had my own little spot, and it was gone. All of my friends were like "What the hell happened to our table?!" And that's basically when things had gotten weird-er in school. Though, we usually talk about the strangest/funniest things, todays was just not what I had expected, I mean seriously. So, Michelle randomly said "fuck" (we always do haha) and Miranda was like "You can't say the word 'fuck'" and we all were like "WTF?" And she's like "Well 'fuck' has so many meanings it's not even funny. Three years from now someone will say 'Fuck' and someone else will say 'You did?' or someone would say 'Fuck you' and the other person would be like 'When?'" Oh sweet Jesus. I mean, we've had conversations like that before, but that was so random....Fuck will always mean fuck in my eyes, haha. I laughed a lot though when she said that, lol.

And then I was randomly walking to my first period class (by randomly I mean 15 minutes early) and all of a sudden I smell smoke out of nowhere but no one racted to it, so I was like "Okay" and just kept on walking. And as soon as I got to my class, I still smelled the smoke, heavily. So I was like "Why do I smell smoke?" And my teavher said "Oh, they decided to turn the Hearts on." And I thought back to when my older sister was in the Junior High with their heaters and how it caught on fire. I was thanking the lord that I didn't sit next to the window (and I was also thanking the Lord that this one chick who is damn annoying was).

Then, it was off to second period (my english class). And I was walking to english and this guy I like, I mean like really really like (he's so adorable and sweet and he always walks down the hall with an angry face and aww) and he avoided me for most of the year (yeah, like two months but yeah) and all of a sudden when he sees me, he says "Hey" or he blushes and turns away....WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???? Guys confuse me so! I mean, he avoids me for most of the year and now he's being nice? What the hell? I asked Michelle and Sofia and Nikki what it meant and they all said that he either likes me or he wants to get to know me in hopes of it turning out to be some sort of relationship. The only relationship I had been in turned out horrible...but I really like him...what do I do? And seriously, what does it mean? Jeez.

Second period, nothing really happened besides that stupid lazy idiot who sits in front of me didn't read the english book (which we have a test on tomorrow) tries to copy my answers for the activity we did today...grrrr...

But third period I had Gym and we had to be weighed and what not and oy vey, I had getting weighed. Well, I'm 65 inches tall (5'5" I believe) and I'm apparently extra skinny....and that pissed of the nurse...she leered at me and I got scared. The one last year yelled at me and called my mom and wrote my mom a letter telling her that I was underweight =/

The rest of the school day was...meh...normal for me. Except when my math teacher said that if the Phillies win tonight, we might have off of school on Wednesday due to a possible parade and what not. And Wednesday is the Tokio Hotel concert. When TH goes to the Electric factory, they're going to hit a lot of traffic. I just hope there isn't a riot o.O

And incase you're wondering, the picture up there is the picture of my schools stadium...which they spent 7 million dollars on but they won't put air conditioning the Senior High or buy new copiers...fuck...and I got a picture of my baby cousin. Here she is:

she's so squishy.

I'm sorry, the clip of Ville singing just made me melt, haha. But I'm trying to get another chapter in before this hectic week starts. I may get a few more in throughout the week, but just to make sure, here's this one. And, as I always say, I hope it's not shit! And, oh, I promise you'll now why there's pictures of Travis McCoy, HannaBeth, Hayley Williams, and wiL Francis up there haha

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Ville's face is absolutely undescribeable. I can see anger, rage, sadness, betrayal...almost every emotional thinkable was painted on his lovely face. Gerard seemed as mad as Ville was as did Mikey. Adam, Andrew and Dave just looked shocked and nervous a bit. Well, I'm guessing they sense Ville's pure fury. Andrew gently closed the door to my room and he and Dave inched toward my bed. Mikey guarded the door  and Gerard and Ville had grabbed one of Chris's arms and histed him up and slammed him into the wall. Huh, I almost feel sorry for him. He's always getting beaten up or thrown against walls.

Ville breathed in heavily and exhaled sharply. He's trying to calm himself down, but when it comes to the Reapers (especially Chris and William) it's almost impossible. Seeing this now made me remember the first time he had pinned Chris against a wall. That was when I ponted out that Chris had been in one of our earlier pictures with William. I didn't know at that point that Chris was a Reaper. I had tried to get Ville off of Chris, mostly because Sofia was right there being held back by Ray, and I knew she shouldn't see Ville do that. But Ville wasn't paying attention, and he was too strong, and he knocked me back, sending me flying into our bedroom, slamming my head on the floor. It kind of makes me happy that he can't see me now, though he can feel me.

"What are you doing here?" Ville hissed, tightning his grip on Chris. I had nearly forgotten that I was on the floor still and if it haven't been for Andrew gasping, I would've remained on the floor. I had gotten to my feet and slowly made my way to where they were. I stood next to Ville now, and Chris still hadn't answered his question. He only looked at me and grimaced. "I said," Ville said, pushing Chris deeper into the wall. "What are you doing here?"

Chris smirked, keeping his eyes fixed on me. But no one else could see. "I was just ckecking in, Ville. I was seeing how she was doing." He motioned to me, not my body on the bed, but me. Ville glanced at the air beside him and huffed an angry breath. I can't really tell if Ville believed him or not, but he shook his head and punched Chris across the face, smiling.

"What did you do to my wife?" Ville spat out to the Brit. It was almost like he knows that Chris made me invisible to him. Chris stared at me now, with a bleeding lip, and he started to retaliate against my husband. His hands tightened into fists. He was planning on hurting Ville and everyone else in this room who had used to be his friend. I placed my hand on Ville's shoulder, trying to warn him. My voice was silent to him, but my touch isn't. Ville just looked at his shoulder, pained, but he leered back at Chris and spoke again. "She's here isn't she?" He paused and corrected himself. "I mean, she's in soul form, but I can't see her. Am I right, Mr. Corner? Is she invisible to me?" Chris smiled from ear to ear, indicating that Ville was right. "Just like you, huh, Chris? I bet you teamed up with William to wreak your havoc on us again, right? Just because you can make sould invisible to other Reapers and William and time travel, doesn't mean you have the right to do this to us. You just couldn't stop with what you did to Sofia." That last line make my heart ache.

"Yeah, pretty much." Chris answered with a wise-ass smile on his face. But I looked closer into his expression, and something else was hidden beneath his stupid facade. His smile deepened and this time, I grabbed Ville's fist and squeezed it. "I think your wife is trying to tell you something." Chris song.

"Yeah? And what's that?" Chris's smile faded, and his nails began to dig into his fists. In one swift movement, both Ville and Gerard were on the floor. Mikey, Dave, and Andrew sprung up and tackled Chris to the ground as Ville and Gerard got to their feet. Chris swung the three men off in a second. I was expecting him to magically poof out og here, but no. His eyes were dead set on me. He charged toward me. I tried to get away but grabbed me by my hair and threw me against the wall this time.

"I was told not to hurt you," Chris croaked, struggling to keep me against the wall. Ville was already running across the room. "But to hell with you all." He took me by my shoulders, spinning me around and throwing me into Ville, knocking us bothi on the ground. Ville had gotten to his feet quick enough to grab Chris and hold him down. With only a few moments of struggle, Chris was pinned to the ground with his arms neatly folded behind his back and Ville sat on top of him.

"Dave," Ville called from across the room. "I need you to reach into my jacket pocket and pull out my cell phone." Dave did as Ville said and took out the phone, but looked confused.

"What do I do with it?" Dave asked innocently. If I hadn't been writhing in pain on the ground, I would've laughed. Dave is adorable.

"I need you to call four people for me, other Reapers." Ville sighed, struggling to keep Chris still. "I need you to call Travis, HannaBeth, Hayley and wiL. Someone needs an intervention. And I need to see my wife again. The one that's not lying lifelessly in a hospital bed."

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It had only taken under two minutes after each call for the Reapers that Ville needed to come. The first was HannaBeth. A model who I never would've thought to be a Reaper, and also she's one of my favorite models. If I were'nt in this...situation, I was would've fangirled. She's a beauty with her long, brown hair and big brown eyes. Then, there was Hayley. One of the best female singers ever. Beautifully awesome colored hair (mostly either red or orangey) that matched perfectly with her olive tinted skin. Then, Travis freaking McCoy. I have always felt the urge to call him Travi and when this is over-for good-I think I will. And last, but not least, wiL Francis. Thank God I already know him because there is much to say about that sexy Reaper.

Funny thing about the four of them coming, well, the first thing they noticed when they entered was the soul sprawled out on the floor, in pain. HannaBeth was the first at my side, helping me up and sitting me on a chair nearby. I can see that he literally had only me made invisible to Ville and no one else. Ville had taken her actions to heart, knowing that I was there and hurt, and put his knee inbetween Chris's shoulder blades. Chris whimpered in pain.

"Ville," Travis started, notcing the other Reaper under him in pain. "What the hell is going on here? What did he do now?" Travis and wiL kneeled next to Ville, while Hayley joined HannaBeth and I. Ville started to explain things to Travis and wiL, and I started to explain things to hannaBeth and Hayley.

"What happened?" Hanna whispered to me. I leaned back into the chair, and sobbed in pain. Chris really messed me up. And I really don't know how. "How in the hell are you hurt?"

"Souls aren't supposed to get hurt?" I asked. Fuck if I know anything.

"Well, not necessarily. The only ones who can cause a soul harm is a Reaper. But the Reaper can only cause a soul harm if the soul is an evil soul, like a murderer or someone. Or, unless the soul caused harm to a Reaper." Hayley explained before hanna could. I pondered that thought for a moment and replied.

"Oh, well. Before Ville and the guys found Chris, he and I had gotten into a tuffle.Maybe I shouldn't have hit him, huh?" Both Hanna and Hayley shrugged. I looked at Gerard, Mikey, Adam, Dave, and Andrew who were just awkwardly standing at my bedside, watching my lifeless body lay there. "Why am I in a coma? And who the hell is watching my babies?"

"Oh crap, good point," I heard wiL say to Ville from the other side of the room. wiL and Travis each grabbed one of Chris's arms and seated him roughly in a seat two down from me. Ville approached Hanna, Hayley and me (or just the empty chair he sees) and kneeled down in front of my chair.

"How is she?" He asked the two female Reapers who were aiding me. Hanna spoke first and glanced at Hayley.

"She's pretty banged up. They had gotten into a fight before you guys came into the room also. And she has no idea why she's in a coma." Hanna spoke blandly, and then Hayley cut in.

"She wants to know, also, if there's someone watching the babies. And, if you want, I can make her visible to you again. Though, it might take me a few hours since she's hurt pretty badly." I reached toward Ville, and lightly touched his bruised face. He nodded, letting a tear slip down his face.

"I have Alicia and Deanna watching the kids. Though they really aren't allowed into the babies ICU or whatever for that long, I have them waiting outside and watching through the window." He slowly raised his hand, and cautiously placed it on my invisible knee. "I know why she's in a coma, and I will explain it to her when you make her visible to me and when I can hear her too." He paused and his eyes flickered between the two women. "Can either of you put her back into her body?" The both shook their heads no, and Hayley let HannaBeth explain.

"The only Reaper who can put a soul back in their body after about like a day of being disconnected and what not is Prudence and we all know how she feels about this. I mean you guys and everything. I can only banish evil souls into the wasteland and Hayley can only undo what Chris's power." She said, glancing at me and smiling apologetically. I squeezed her hand and looked at Hayley who was looking at the wall behind my bed. I followed her gaze and saw a familiar soul  sitting next to my head.

"Maybe I can help." Maggie said, stepping over my body and hopping off my bed. She slowly walked over to me and gazed at the Reapers and the mortals in the room.

"How?" Ville asked, getting up and walking over to Maggie. She smiled a little bit.

"Well, I had actually talked to Brandy a bit earlier and she seem slike a nice girl. And I had told her about a friend of ours who's a witch. She can put Brandy back into her body. But as I said before, Brandy needs to know the reason why she's in a coma for it to work."

"Why is that?" I was thinking the same thing, though I do believe that she had explained it to me. I can't remember,

"It's more effective if she knows why." Maggie said with a smirk.

"But I thought you said that she wouldn't be here until at least two days from now?" I questioned, suddenly remembering the earlier conversation.

"That's why I came to your room. She's here early. She said that she's on vacation and would love to help us. And she's dying to meet you."

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sorry if it's extra uberly shitty. I'm so not thinking clearly today...

My mood today:

Very very very bitchy. Sarcastic comments have been splurting out of my mouth all day. For some reason, everyone's been pissing me off. Though everyone usually pisses me off on a daily basis, today was just one of my retaliation days. Seriously, I'm like permanent PMS. That's what my mom and my sister call me when I'm especially bitchy. But today, oh today, they seemed to enjoy it ever so much. Both of them double teamed me and pissed me off so much, like seriously. Grrr.

But tomorrow is going to be fun (er), lol. I'm going to Deanna's house bright and early and we're going to hang out all day long XD Yippie! I love hanging out with Deanna, she makes me smile!

And just to let you know, my week is going to be VERY VERY busy! Okay, here's my schedule:

Monday: Lab-fricken-day in Chemistry. I have to do the pre-lab questions by Monday and if I don't, no lab for Brandy and my grade drops even more.

Tueday: Test on "Maggie: Girl Of The Streets" (which thank God I know a lot about) and I also have my quilting club and we're cutting our fabric and doing that hurts my back like hell.

Wednesday: Seriously? TOKIO HOTEL BITCHES! Haha, at the Electric Factory. We're leaving right after school and I intend on staying after the concert too in hopes of meeting the guys XD

Thursday: I have a field trip for my Apparel Design class. We're going shopping for our fabric for our Quilt Picture Frames. And i'm going to be tired as hell or wired, either way, it won't be pretty haha.

Friday: C'mon, seriously? Halloween! And Frankies bday! Though I'm NOT going Trick-or-treating, I'm staying home with my mom and my friend (when she comes back from taking my older sister and my little sister back from getting the candy) nd we're going to watch scary movies! haha

But i'm trying my best to get caught up with "Love Reaper" because with what's going on in my head, oh let me tell you, a lot of you guys will be like freaking out by the end of it. Yeah, I said it, I already know the ending! I've created it in my twisted mind and everything, lol. I'm so hyper right now, I had a bajillion things of pepsi it's not even funny, okay, maybe a little. Oh, and by the way, I have a new fictional vampire crush. I know, fictional means not real but he looks so dreamy in my mind. And he goes by the name of Jaguar. He's a character in "Midnight Predator" and OMG, I love that book! I'm going to read it again! haha.

I'm going to end my hyper ranting right now because I'm also writing a short story and I have to design my friends cross tattoo. So, adios!

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

Muwhahaha...new chappie XD Sorry it took me a couple days...this week has been hectic and next week will be just AS hectic! And I'm saying this now! Do not expect to see me on Buzznet next wednesday because right after school I'm going to a Tokio Hotel concert lol...and if you don't know already...MY AUNT JUST GAVE BIRTH TO A BABY GIRL NAMED ELIZABETH LYNN!!! YAY!!!!...and I hope this foesn't suck because I'm really excited and happy and I need some pepsi and food because i Haven't really eaten in a couple days and I'm sick because of it so yeah...I hope it isn't shit!

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"Tell me right now, Chris! Is William involved in this? Did you do this to me?! Tell me!" I shouted at the Brit, the one who murdered my best friend and the one I feel like murdering right now. I know the bastard has something to do with this. He said that he made me invisible to Ville but there has to be a reason why. Why can't my husband see me? God! I'm so pissed! I want to be in my body right now! I want to wake up and be with my family! WHY CAN'T I?

"You need to remember first, Brandy. If you weren't listening the first time I told you." He remarked. There was a smirk on his handsome face, but I could see guilt in his eyes. Huh, maybe the bastard has a conscience or maybe he just feels guilty for betraying the whole Reaper community. Who the hell knows?

"But I can't! I can't remember a thing, Chris!" I groaned and anger spread throughout my face. I really want to rip his eyes out for everything! And then feed them to him and then get the Elders to turn him human so I can murder him! Or I can rip his family jewels off and make sure he doesn't have any Reaper babies with the poor woman who decides to fall in love with him. That'll teach the bastard.

"No, you remember. It's just not coming to you now. It will soon though." He said nonchalantly; the guilt broke free from his eyes and all I can see in them now is malevolence.

"Why are you here, Chris?" I questioned. My curiosity taking over every inch of my soul. "What do you want? You want to taunt me? Is that it? Just laugh in my face while I sit here suffering? Why the hell are you here?" I reiterated at the end. Chris thought for a moment, his smirk fell from his face. By the look on his face, I could see that he was deliberating in his mind on whether or not he should tell me the truth. And whatever the truth is, it's most likely going to freak me out or make me angry.

"I just came to check on you." He said in a muted tone, not intending on explaining why. He turned his back on me and sat in a chair near the door. And he just sat there for a few moments whithout taking his eyes off of me. I guess he was expecting me to attack him or something. And...he was right.

I gave in to my desires and ran my way across the room where he sat and grabbed him by the shirt collar, pulling him up without any hesitation or struggles and threw him against the wall. he didn't seem shocked by my actions. He expected it and I expected it too. But I need to know what's going on and i know he knows the truth.

"Tell me," I started with a scornful tone. "Why are you checking on me? Who sent you? Why is this happening?!" I nearly shouted the questions and that made him flinch. I could by his eyes that he really did not want to tell me the answer to my questions or something made him promise that he wouldn't reveal the truth to me even if I tortured his ass. "You can't, can you?" I said, tightening my grip. I don't really care if he can't tell me, I'll make him.

"No, I can't." he said through his pearly white teeth. My nostrils flared and he started to get aggitated as well. I knew that any second, he would start to fight back. I could sense it because that's just who he is. And I already knwo that he doesn't have any problems with hitting-or killing- a woman. "Let go of me, Brandy. Now." He started to shake with anger. he knew that somehow or another I was going to make him talk and I can see that he didn't want that.

"Not until you tell me something, anything. Give me a damn answer you asshole!" I shouted.

"I don't want to hurt you." He said, trying to clam himself down. My grip had gotten even tighter on his collar and I pressed him harder against the wall.

"You can't hurt a soul, dumbass." I fired at him with an enormous amount of acidity in my voice. Right then, he burrowed his eyeborws in rage and his hands flew up at my shoulders, throwing me off of him. This time, I hit the ground with a thud, a painful thud. And I realized that it wasn't only my soul that felt it, when I hit the ground, my lifeless body twitched in agony.

"I can hurt a soul because I'm a damn Reaper, dumbass!" His anger went up like flames that could burn a forest into ashes. His hands were shaking and his eyes were ablaze. "I can't tell you anything. I'm only here to check up on you, okay? That's it!" He started to pace back and forth. It looked like he was arguing with himself in his mind. "I'm not telling you anything."

"Then why are you still here?" Sarcasm ruled my voice, as did my curiosity still. As soon as I said that, Chris stopped pacing at leered at me with a menacing smirk. He was taunting me, like William did with my kids in the future. The anger bottled up inside of my, from everything that happened, busted open like an extremely shaken can of soda. I got to my feet, nails digging into my ghostly hands, and I charged toward Chris. As soon as I did, Ville came in the room with Gerard, Mikey, Adam, Andrew and Dave. I collided with Chris who was taken by surprise by the entrance of my husband and friends. I knocked Chris to the ground and in that instant, it was like he became more real. Then, I realized, that he was visible to everyone in the room. I looked my husband, who's eyes were enraged. And I smiled.

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sorry it's so short, I didn't want to reveal too much. And oh, I'm making a suggestion here about these awesome books i'm reading by Amelia Atwater-Rhodes...they're called "In The Forest of the Night," "Demon In My View," and "Midnight Predatir"...read them and fall in love...just like I have haha

I've been on Buzznet for over a year now and a lot of people on here had some sort of impact on my life. And I was wondering, and this goes for everyone, who on Buzznet has had some sort of impact on your life (good or bad)? Why? How did they effect your life?

I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours.

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

Muwhahaha...I still hope that it's not shit...lol

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Sarah and I walked into Maggie's room, which looked just like mine except with a little more people inside. There was an wold womans body lying on the bed with wires and IV's plugged into her arms. And an old man right by her side with two adults, man and woman, standing behind him. The old woman looked younger than what she appeared. She still had red hair, but with bits of gray thrown troughout her hair. She had less wrinkles than what most women would have, and she looked peaceful. Something that we all can't change no matter how hard we try.

The ol man, probably her husband, had a pained look on his face. Worried, which showed through with wrinkles and more gray hair. He held her hand in his, and sang under his breathe to her. And the two behind him hand their hands on his shoulder, comforting him. I gather they are the children. They look so sad.

I was so engrossed in this little family, that I had almost forgot the other comatose souls standing all throughout the room, talking to one another. I can see the old woman, her soul I mean, walking towards me with a warm smile on her face. She gazed at me and then at little Sarah.

"Sarah, sweetheart," She said to the little girl. "Why don't you go see Matthew and see if he wants to play." Sarah nodded and bolted through the wall. I wonder if Matthews another comatosed soul. Maybe a little boy. "You must be Brandy." She said to me, extending her hand towards me. I grasped her hand and shook it.

"Yeah, I am. How'd you know?"

She smiled and gave out a little laugh. "Because you look confused and shocked." Well that would explain it. I bet I do look pretty confused, considering everything that happened. Though I don't really know what happened. "Sarah must have brought you here for a reason. Sweet little thing, she is. So, tell me, what happened dear?"

"Um," I started out. I kept searching my mind for any memory but drew up nothing. "I don't know. All I remember is picking up our phone to call my friend, and I felt something wet, and then I was here," I burrowed my eyebrows. "Am I supposed to remember what happened?" Maggie thought for a minute, holding her chin in her hand in a philsophical way.

"Most of us do, even if when we would wake and forget everything. Maybe you weren't awake?" She suggested. I sighed and thought back to everything. I had to be awake. I have that feeling that I was. I just don't remember anything.

"No, I think I was awake. I just can't remember." Maggie gazed at me for a moment and then gazed at another soul person and motioned them to come to her. A teenage boy stood at her side now. He was adorable. Short blonde hair, big brown eyes and freckles throug about his face. He had to be around 14, but kids these days are smaller than they appear.

"Abel," Maggie breathed out. "When is your mothers friend coming to see you, or your body I mean, again?" The boy shrugged his shoulders and paused for a brief moment to think.

"Um, in about two days or something like that." He said ina pipsqueaky voice. Somebody didn't hit pubrity yet. "Why?" He asked.

"I was hoping that she could help up out with her." She said, gesturing to me.

"How can she help me out when obviously nobody can see me except you guys." I blurted out. Before Maggie could reply, I said, "Well, my husband did feel me touch him. I guess somebody could see me besides you guys if he could feel me." Maggie looked astonded, as did every other soul in the room who was paying attention. Her mouth dropped in shock, I guess you would call it that.

"You touched him?" The old woman said. "Amazing. It had taken me at least five years to do something like that. Tell me," she said, sweeping across the room. She came face to face with me and looked me in the eye. "Are you a witch?" I blinked.

"No, but I guess me being able to touch my husband could possibley be because he's a Reaper." Huh, I wonder if I'm supposed to tell anyone that. I mean, I've never been able to before, so why would now make a difference? Maybe if I try hard enough, he'll be able to see me and hear me?

"Oh, well, that's probably why he could feel you then. Did he hear you? See you? By any chance?" I shook my head no and she started to pace back and forth. "Well, I guess in two or three days we'll be able to figure things out if Trixie comes. She'll be able to help. She's been helping us all out."

"Really? How?" This intrigues me.

"Well, she's a witch. She can see us and hear us. She's a smart one and she loves to help us out. But," Maggie paused and stopped pacing. "She needs to know what happened to you to help you out." My facial expression saddened. If only I can remember. "Do you remember anything else that could possibly help?"

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I sat on my bed next to myself. Gerard, Lyn-Z and Alicia went out to lunch. A bunch of my other friends came and visited me and my babies, but by Ville's request, they left after only an hour. he didn't have much of a reason for them to leave, but he hasn't left my side at all, only to visit our children. He was playing with my fingers, like I would always do to him at night when I couldn't sleep. I would love to touch him again, to hold him and tell him that everything would be okay.

I stretch my hand out to his cheek and lightly outline his bruise with the tip of my finger. Ville looked up for a moment, like he was looking right at me as if he could see me. Now I know how it feels like to literally be invisible. It sucks majorly. Maybe if I can just try to say something to him, or touch him in a way (not a perverted way you perverse people) maybe, maybe he can help me. I crawl across my hospital bed and come face to face with Ville. I kiss his cheek and lean close to his ear, letting my face touch his. I could feel his body go rigid beside me.

"Ville," I whisper in his ear. "I need your help. I need to wake up. I want to wake up and be with you and our children and our friends. I just need you to tell me what happened. What happened to your face? Why am I in a coma? Please, if you can hear me, say something."

"Brandy," he whispered in a sorrowfilled cry. "Please wake up. I can feel you here. I know it's you." He can feel me, but he can't see me or hear me.

"I know you know I'm here but please, help me wake up!" I sobbed. I garbbed his head and pressed my lips up against his. It felt like I was sucking the breathe right out of his. For a moment there, I felt as if I was flickering in and out of reality. I pulled back from Ville who was staring at where I would be if he would see me. He sprung up from his seat and never took his eyes off of me, like he could see me. He sprinted out of the room after a few moments and left me here.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply. This is depressing. Very depressing. I freaked him out. Sheesh, I'm just so stupid! "Dammit," I whispered under my breathe.

"What? You thought that he could see you? Hear you?" A voice ridiculed from somewhere in the room. A very familiar voice. "Don't get your hopes up, Brandy. I made you invisible to him."

"Chris?" I belted out. I jumped off my bed and headed in the direction of his voice. In an instant, he appeared in front of my very eyes, but not before I bumped into him. Fucking great. he can hear me and see me and touch me. Bastard.

"In the flesh, so to speak." He smirked and made me want to rip his eyes out. Fucking bastard killed my Sofia. My best friend. I should rip his eyes out and then feed it to him! Fucking asshole! "Simmer down, Cupcake." he said as if he could read my thoughts. I hope he can read my thoughts so he knows how I'll kill him if I can kill him.

"What do you mean you made me invisible to him? Are you the one who put me in this coma? Was it William?" I interogated automatically.

"I don't know. How about you just try to remember and then we'll talk."

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hope this isn't crappy ♥

Sorry I haven't written in like two days...lol...some shizzle has been going down...and after this...I'm eating some Cinnamon Life...I hope this isn't shit...and btw...I've been "thinking" (dreaming har har) of a new fanfiction for when this is done...I don't know if it's you know...fanfic material yet though...

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Beep. Beep. Beep.

Ugh, those stupid machines again. Where am I? My head...and my stomach...it feels so much lighter. My babies? Where are my babies? I open my eyes and the first person I see is Gerard hovering over me, worried. His eyes look frantic and tired. Circles under his eyes and I can see worry lines on his face. Where is Ville? Where are my children? Are they dead? They were born premature...but they can't be dead...

"Ville," my voice calls out. I sit up immediately and look around the room. "Ville?" I hear myself say again. The door opens and he walks in. Oh good, he heard me, thank God. Gerard turned around and inhales deeply.

"Nothing?" Ville says in exhaustion. Gerard shook his head and looked out the window. I burrow my eyebrows in confusion.

"No," Gerard said in monotone. He looked up at Ville. "How are they?" Ville slightly smiled and shrugged his shoulders a bit.

"They're doing alright. Better than any other premature baby would be at this point. I even got to touch their little hands and fingers." He looked like he was about to cry. "I told the doctors their names. Kaiden Aubrey Valo and Desdemona Audrey Valo. For Brandy." Awww, he's so sweet. He walked across the room and to the side of my bed, next to Gerard.

"Alicia and Lyn-Z went to get coffee," Gerard said. Good, I need some caffine. "Looks like we're going to be here for awhile."

"Why?" I heard my voice say. Ville and Gerard sighed in unison, but they didn't answer my question. "Why are we going to be here for a long time? Is it because of the babies?" Ville took a seat on the chair next to my bed and slouched back. I looked at Ville and noticed a huge bruise on the side of his face. I wonder ho whe got it? They totally ignored me. Jerks. "Ville, Gerard, can you two please answer me? Why are we going to be here for awhile?" No answer. "Okay, fine. Then I'll ask the doctor or the nurse." Still, no answer. I could feel my face turn red and I reached up and tried to yank on Gerards collar but...my hand went right through it. Oh. My. God. I'm see-through!

I started to ger up from the bed but lost my balance and fell off. I hit the ground without any noise or any disturbance. I looked back up at the bed and saw my hand lying there motionless. Dear Lord, am I dead? A vegetable? The door opened with a creak and in walked Alicia and Lyn-Z with coffee in their hands.

"Alicia? Lyn-Z?" I cried out frantically. I got to my feet and started waving my arms around like a mad person. "Hello? Anybody? Can you hear me?!" Obviously not. The two ladies walked to Ville and Gerard and each handed them a cup of coffee. "What the hell...?"

"You're in a coma." I heard a small voice call out from nehind me. I whirled around and a little girl with long, blonde hair and blue eyes was standing behind me. There were circles under her eyes and she was wearing a childs hospital gown and bracelet.

"What? What do you mean I'm in a coma?" I replied back.

"I mean you'll be asleep for awhile, like me." She said with a small smile on her face.

"Then why are we out of our bodies?" I asked. I hope she knows what I mean or can explain it to me. I mean, she's so small and everything.

"Because when you sleep, your soul descends from your body for a while until you wake up. But since we're in a coma, it could take a while. Maggie told me that."

"Maggie? Who's Maggie?" I questioned her.

"She's the old lady the next room over," she pointed to the wall behind my bed. "She was there when I went into a coma and she told me about everything."

Okay, so I'm asleep and my soul is descened from my body and nobody can see me but this little girl and probably Maggie. Oh jeez, I hope Ville falls asleep soon. Or at least someone in this room. I looked around my room again and at Ville. How come I don't remember what happened? Why am I in a coma? Did something go wrong with the births?

"I'm Sarah," the little girl said, catching my attention again. "If you want to talk to Maggie you can because she's been in a coma longer than the rest of us," She walked up to me and extended her hand. "Come on, I'll take you. She's really nice."

I took her hand and we began to walk towards the wall behind my bed. I can walk through walls now. Wonderful. As we got closer to the wall, I reached out to Ville, just hoping he might feel my presence. My hand touched his shoulder, without going through, and Ville sprung up almost instantly.

"What's wrong?" Lyn-Z asked with curious eyes.

Ville looked around and caught his breathe again, sitting right back down. "I don't know. I just felt something or someone on my shoulder," He looked at my frail body, then looked down. "It was probably my mind playing tricks on me."

Sarah looked amazed. So did I. How can he feel me but not see or hear me? He is a Reaper isn't he? Why can't he see me? Can't Reapers see souls?

I longed to touch him again, but Sarah yanked on my arm for me to go to Maggie with her. Obviously no other comatose coul can touch people. We started to go through the wall (which was cool) and Sarah asked, "Who'd you do that?"

"I don't know," I replied. I looked at Ville again who was staring at his cup of coffee. "I don't know."

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Okay, so yesterday at math, it was at the end of class, my nre friend Nate comes to talk to me and my friend Emily. And I go "Guess what Nate?" and he's like "What?" and I'm like "I'm biracial." and he's like "WHAT?!" And I'm like "I'm biracial, I'm half Cherokee Iandian." And he's like "Oh, I thought you meant that you were racist against the Mexicans and The Japanese."....I pick the brightest friends...lol! But me and Emily were ROLLING! It was hilarious....lol

And can someone tell my what "zomg" means? I have no idea -_-

Uh-oh! I'm posting again! Wooooo!!!!!!...I hope it isn't shit :)

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"Ville, I have to tell you about my dream, but not here." I said all in one frantic breath. William is going to go into the future and kidnap my kids! That bastard! Oh fuck monkey! Why can't he just leave us alone!?! I don't love him! My heart doesn't belong to him! I'm not having his fucking kids! I just need to leave, right now. Ugh, my stomach is killing me. The damn kids keep on kicking....I wonder if they know about my dream and what's going on. That'd be kind of weird.

"Alright," Ville said sensing the panic in me. "Let's go." Ville held out his hand to me, indicating that we were going to leave the Reaper way. I thought about it quickly. Alicia and Mikey would be pretty suspicious if I had just disappeared.

"No," I said, shaking my head. "I'll leave out the front door and you make yourself invisible until we get up the street." Ville nodded, lowering his hand to his side. In an instant, he wasn't visible to me, but I felt him there. I opened the bathroom door slowly, stepping out and looking around. Mikey and Alicia, along with Lyn-Z and Gerard, were all in the living room watching FUSE. They looked up at me as I stepped into the room and headed towards the front door. I smiled and waved at Gerard and Lyn-Z (so they don't feel like I was ignoring them).

"Call me when you get home," Alicia called after me. "So I know that you and the babies are safe." I threw an 'alright' over my shoulder and shut the door behind me. I walked quickly up the street, waiting for Ville to reveal himself to me again.

"Slow down." he said from behind me. I turned around and caught him jogging up to catch up with me. Haha, I'm faster. As soon as Ville reached me, he threw his arms around me in a hug. He pulled back and kissed me quickly. "I still feel horrible for making you cry." He said in a serious tone. I smiled slightly and we began to walk.

"I have to tell you about my dream, Ville," I began. "Okay, well. I had a dream about the twins when they were older, in their teenage years. Kaiden and Desdemona," I siad, smiling at the names. "And they were in a cemtery at night because Kaiden wanted to prove a stupid legend wrong and he dragged Des with him," Why do I feel like I'm repeating myself? Oh, that's right, because I am. "And William came out of no where and started taunting them. He was invisible to them at first. When he appeared to them, he had said that I had missed them and wanted to see them. And Kaiden said that I disappeared and you were dead," I stopped and gazed up at Ville. He inhaled deeply and gave a short nod for me to continue. "Then William kidnapped them. He wanted a family." I looked down at my feet. I looked back up and Ville with tears in my eyes and said, "Ville I'm scared."

"I know," he replied through his teeth. "I am, too."

"Can you die?" That question has been on my mind all morning. Ville looked up at the foggy sky and pondered that for a few moments. He put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him. Ville rested his head on mine as we continued to walk.

"In a Reaper form, no," He sighed. "But if I'm turned fully human again, yes." Fully human again. Will that happen? "Yes, it can happen. I can be turned fully human again." Ville said as if he heard my thoughts. "But it's either by punishment or a reward."

"Punishment? For what?" I see humanity as more of a reward than a punishment (though being a vampire would be badass).

"Well, lots of things. For one, if you attacked another Reaper or an innocent human, you're given your humanity back, killed and your soul gets sent to Satan," he said. I wonder why that didn't happen to William. "Another example would be fratenizing (sp?) with our enemies."

"Reapers have enemies?" Jeez, I learn something new everyday. Ville rolled his eyes and looked down at me with a smug look on his face. He smiled a little.

"Yes, we do," He said, astonished by my interest in Reaper dealinga. "Vampires, for one." Holy fuck! They do exist! I am now the happiest (well not really...on a fangirl basis) chick in the world! Haha....wait, why are they enemies? As if reading my thoughts again, Ville answered, "Vampires are our enemies because they kill innocent people who are not on our lists. Their victims souls are trapped here on Earth because we are not allowed to take their souls if they are not on our lists. And that creates a whole new mess and everything."

Dammit. I really want to talk with a vampire.

"Okay, getting back on topic, which is our children," I sighed. "What do we do?" I placed my hands on my tummy as if I were giving it a hug.

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The rest of the walk home was silent. That left Ville and I powerless to our thoughts. I have no idea what he was thinking about, but in my head, I was panicking. I could still see the look on my kids' face when they mention Ville and I, and how scared they were of William. Wait, hold on...flashback to dream happening right now.

"W-who are you?" Des cried in a shaky voice. "Where are you?"

"Just as frightened like your mother would be in this situation," The voice taunted. "You're just like her little Desdemona. The same wavy hair, the same eyes, the same amount of fright in your perfect little voice."

"Leave her alone you asshat!" Kaiden belted out and crushed his sister into his side.

"And you little Kaiden, you're just like your father," The voice said with acid. "Courageous, poetic, charming. And you could probably sing too. The same eyes, the same features, and the same amount of bravery in your voice. You'd probably do anything to protect little Desdemona wouldn't you?"

I know he said that he had taken me and most likely still has me but there's still something odd about this. And Ville did say earlier 'Brandy, he said that Desdemona looks just like you.' How does he already know what she looks like? There's only one reasonable explaination to that.

"Ville," I said in a horrid cob as we entered our front door. Ville whirled around, sensing the panic in my voice, with wide eyes. "I think he already has them, or at least Desdemona."

"What?" He ushered me into the living room and sat on the couch. Good, my back hurts too. "What do you mean?"

"You said that he said that Desdemona looks just like me," A tear rolled down my cheek. "How does he know that unless he saw her, unless he already kidnapped them from the future?" Ville leaned back into the couch with anger and fright splattered all over his face. His face started to turn red with rage and his hands were clentched into fists. Oy, I think I'm going to be sick.

I slowly got up from the couch. I felt Ville jump to his feet as soon as I got up. I started to head towards the phone, I needed to call Alicia. For one thing, I promised that I'd call. And I also need to tell her. I need to tell someone besdies Ville.

I started to dial Alicia's number, but I felt as if something took over me. My hands started to shake, causing me to drop the phone, and my stomach, my babies, started to feel...weird. I felt a liquid run down the legs of my pants, and I heard a water substance hit the floor. I looked down and my water broke, then everything went black.

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Another million years since I wrote? I think not...a few days maybe though lmao! WISH ME LUCK ON THE PSAT'S TOMORROW! I NEED TO SCORE A 950!

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Beep, beep, beep. Went the alarm clock in Alica and Mikey's guest bedroom. I sighed, leaning up on my elbows and yawning while the annoying thing beeped. Eight a.m. what a good time to wake up, I guess, though I'm still pretty damn tired. That dream I had last night woke me up a couple times. I can't ever imagine a future like that. But if William has something to do with how things turned out in my dreams, I guess I can.

I slowly rose out of the bed and turned off the alarm clock. I need to get home and change. I hate wearing my clothes two days in a row...I'm OCD like that. But I'm hungry, so I'll leave after I eat some food. I keep thinking back to my dream, thinking about what Kaiden had said. 'Our mother disappeared when we were babies.' If that's ture, than that's not that far away. And William murdering Ville? Is that even possible? I mean, of course he's tried before but I never really thought that you could kill a Reaper. I'll have to ask Ville when I see him again...

That's if I see him again. Yesterday...he just didn't seem right. He didn't seem happy about the twins and then he just left. And he's still not here. He's not next to me now, like he'd usually be. One would think that he's be by my side since William is back. One would also think that Ville would never just leave him pregnant wife like that. My heart hurts. I just don't want to think about it right now.

"Brandy? Are you up?" Alicia said, knocking on the door once and popping her head in. She smiled when she saw me just standing there staring off into space. "Hello...earth to Brandy. Is anybody in there?" She sang.

"I'm up and no, there's nobody in here. Haha." I joked. I sighed, and got all serious. I can't help but to think of my Ville. "Did you hear from him? Ville, I mean."

"No," Alicia said with a saddened expression. "Sorry." She slowly walked across the room and grabbed my arm and started to walk me out the bedroom door. I'm guessing she's leading me to food. And I was right, she was leading me to food-I mean the kitchen. I could see that she had decorated the table with loads of yummies. Pancakes, Cinnamon Life, waffles...everything.

"Alicia, I need to tell you about a dream I had last night." I said as I sat down and poured myself a bowl of the Cinnamon Life cereal. She shoved a waffle in her mouth and stared blankly at me and nodded. I'm guessing she's telling me to go ahead and explain. "Okay, well. It was about the twins," I started off. "I had a dream about when they're older-teenagers. Kaiden and Desdemona. They were walking in a cemetery at night, trying to prove a legend wrong but William found them. And I keep thinking back to what Kaiden and William were talking about. William said, 'Your mother would just love to see the two of you. She misses you so much.' And Kaiden said, 'Our mother disappeared when we were babies.' And then William said, 'Well, that's because I'm the one who took her-' And then Kaiden said, 'And you murdered our father.' It was horrible. And then William kidnapped them." I frowned.

"You have a way with explaining things." Alicia muttered. I shot an evil glare at her and she groaned. "Brandy, it was only a dream. Don't fret over it. Seriously. Though, your dreams do have a way of becoming true.."

"Oh, well thanks." I mumbled. Her shoulders slumped. I can see that she doesn't want to deal with this now. She shouldn't have to either. I should just stop telling her about it now. I don't want what happened to Sofia to happen to her.

I finished my breakfast faster than I had expected me to. Mikey had volunteered to drive me home, but I told him that I'd rather walk, it was good for me though my back hurts like a fuck monkey. But, being pregnant and all, I had to pee first. Damn babies sleeping on my bladder.

I walked into the bathroom and shut the door. A candle was lit (it smelled really yummy) and the sunlight was shining through the window. I did my business (like you need any details about that haha). I still can't keep my mind off of my dream and my Ville. Nothing can ever make me stop thinking about Ville, even if he were here. I turned the water on at the sink, and splurted the cucumber melon smelling soap on my hands, and began to wash them. I finished, shaking the excess water off of my hands and began to dry them on the towel next to the sink. I glanced up at the mirror and screamed. A pair of deep green eyes were staring at me, and they weren't mine.

"Ville, you asshat! You can't scare a pregnant woman!" I yelled at him.

"Ssssshhh!" he shushed. "I'm sorry, I scared but I really need to talk to you." He whispered in my ear.

"About what? Are you going to apologize about what you did to me yesterday? Do you know that you made me cry?" I like adding on the guilt, freaking bastard. Ville had a sympathetic look in his eyes and worry on his face.

"I made you cry?" he whispered. "Oh, I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I didn't want to make you cry." He said. Damn him and his sweet voice. Now I feel sorry for him.

"Well, you did. And then I had a horrible dream. You made me think that you left me! Why the hell would you do that?" My voice started to get higher again. I calmed myself down and lowered my tone. "Why?"

He looked at me for a few silent seconds, sorrow contorted his face and it made me feel like I needed to hug him. He sighed and looked away from me. He's been doing that too much, I wish that he would stop that already. "Brandy, I'm sorry that I made you cry and feel that way," he began. He better be sorry. "But, I had to leave. I needed to do something," he looked at me now, his  hand stroking my face. I looked at him with confusion and he continued. "I saw William at the doctors office yesterday. I got fed up with him following us everywhere. But he knows that we're having twins now. And the look on his face had frightened me. I dropped you off her, so I can go find him and confront him myself. I-"

"You did what?" I interupted in a whisper. He held his hand up, motioning for me to stop so he could explain.

"I went to the store, and waited outside for him. I knew that he had followed me, I could feel it. And when he finally did show himself to me, we had a confrontation," he paused and thougt back to the incident. "We were arguing over you. You and the twins. He said that if...if you don't go to him after they are born, he will make...he...he said that he'd kidnapped them and make little Desdemona his wife instead of you. He said-"

"That pedophile! She's just a baby! Not even born! Eeew!" I blurted out in digust. For some reason, I thought back to Breaking Dawn when Jacob imprinted little Nessie and how Bella reacted. Of course that cracked me up but at least I know what Bella's feeling.

"Brandy, you don't understand. Remember when William sent us four years into the past?" I nodded. Who wouldn't remember that? "Well, he can send himself or anyone else into the future too. Brandy, he said that Desdemona looks just like you."

Oh my God. My dream...

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I wrote this for you Aleena :) I hope it isn't shit :) And I wrote this from your POV Aleena, I hope that's okay...lol..just tell me if I got your personality wrong...lol...and I added myself in if that's okay :)

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A knock comes at my window. Midnight, wonderful, though I was already awake. Couldn't sleep at all. All night I had this eerie feeling that someone was calling for me, calling my name and I couldn't reply back. I don't know how.

My window slowly creaks open and a familiar best friend came crawling through. Brandy, moonlight shining down on her. Her short, black hair messy, splurting out everywhere. She wore a short white dress (her nightgown) which was covered in dirt and plastered with blood. Her green eyes wild, thrilled-what the fuck happened to her?

"What are you doing here?" I hissed out in a whisper. I shot up from my bed and pulled her completely out of my window and shut it behind me. I turned around, expecting Brandy to look a little shocked, confused, but I ended up looking up like that instead. She was smiling from ear to ear.

"You will never believe what just happened to me!" She squealed in excitement. She plopped herself  on my floor and her mouth shot off at the speed of light. The next half hour, she explained her crazy night to me. Let's just say my jaw dropped majorly.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa!" I said abruptly, making her stop talking. "Vampires? Like 'I wanna suck your blooood' vampires?" She nodded enthusiastically, her smile never faded. "Uh-huh. And you didn't get bitten because this vampire named Gaspard chose you to be like his mate and what not?" She nodded again, letting out a little giggle. "But, including you, they needed two more chicks to make their family whole? Huh...who's the other chick?"

"Aleena, can I ask you a question?" Brandy asked with an innocent look on her face which totally doesn't match her tone of voice.

"Hey, no fair! I asked you a question first!" I protested, neatly placing my hands on my hips.

"I swear it's relevent and it'll answer your question!" She pleaded. I sighed, surrendering yo her. She perked up even more (is that even possible) and continued. "Okay, I just need to know...how to phrase this...okay...ummm...have you been hearing like sexy voices calling your name in the middle of the night?" Holy fuck! She really hit the nail on the head. How'd she know? Is she hearing voices too?

She kind of too a hint of yes when I didn't reply...and when my face flushed red. In a milisecond, her face went hard and serious. She looked me dead in the eye and her next choice of words look me by surprise.

"You need to come with me, Aleena." she said. "They're waiting. Alexander is waiting."

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At first, I refused to go anywhere with my bloody (and dirty) best friend. If she is telling the truth, I didn't want to be drained of my blood even if the vampire who does it is sexy.

But I gave in to her whim. Believe it or not, I was, well, bored half to death. And Brandy might be either telling the truth or going crazy, but at least it'll give me something to do in the early morning.

Brandy didn't give me much chance to change. So I just threw on some chucks and a jacket and climbed out my window. Great. I'm walking in the cold wearing pajama shorts, a tee covered with a light jacket, and chucks. I am cold. And also seeking out vampires in the really early morning.

It had only taken us fifteen minutes to get to the 'vampire lair'. It just happened to be the creepy, rundown mansion at least three or four blocks from my house that was supposedly 'haunted' by evil ghosts. Coincidence? I think not. Ironic is more like it.

"This is it," Brandy said in a cheery tone. They must have brainwashed her because she's never this cheery. Well, she does go through countless fangirl moments when you mention Lestat de Lioncourt or any other vampire. But I can't complain because I get the same way at the mention of Brian haner (Synyster Gates from Avenged).

"This place is crap," I critisized happily. She shot me a 'shut up' look and walked to the front door. I follwed her with a sigh. I wonder if vampires have doorbells. No, she knocked. But that's be cool if they did. I bet it's be a funeral song, haha.

The door, not being pulled open by another, slipped opened with a sound. Creepy, really creepy. Brandy took my hand and led me inside.

The door slammed shut and the flesh holding mine slipped away and I found myself staring at the most beautiful man in the world. He was tall, at least 6'1" with piercing icy blue eys, snow white skin, long black hair  and the most amazing bone structure. Not to mention he's, uh, in good shape.

"Aleena," he cooed in the most beautiful voice. The most recognisible voice. "I'm Alexander." Holy shit, Brandy isn't crazy after all. Wait, where is she? "She's with Gaspard," Alexander said as if he could read my thoughts. "I'm sure you know why you're here, love."

I nodded slowly, my mouth shut, speechless. He smiled at my silence. In the back of mind, I imagined an eternity with him. Cold and perfect, and I just met him, or had I? A feeling of familiarity washed through my body. Do I know him?

I sighed, searching my memory for any evidence of him. Nothing, but I still can't shake the feeling. Footsteps sounded throughout the house. I jumped back a little and nearly fell to the ground. Alexander grabbed me before I fell. His skin was cold against mine. Awesome.

"What the hell?" I finally breathed out. Alexander scowled.

"That's just the others prying around upstairs," he said. "They want to meet you." Oh great. A bunch of vampires want to meet me. A vampire I just met wants me to meet the rest of his coven. What's so special about me? Yummy blood? Maybe this is just a cult tha Brandy joined and wants me to join too. Actually, that's be kind of funny. My parents would be pissed.

I glanced at Alexander (that beautiful whatever he is) and nodded blankly. He grabbed me by the wrist and ran me upstairs in lightning fast speed. In an instant, I was in a room with ten vampires, and Brandy who was asleep on a fluffy bed. She looked as white as death-and clean.

I looked around the room and studied  the beautiful creatures that surrounded me. I'm guessing that fellow by the bed is Gaspard. He's handsome, really handsome. The others just looked at me, studying me too. It kind of made me feel violated.

"Aleena," the beautiful Alexander said to me. "This is Gaspard," he said pointing to the 'vamp' by the bed. I was right, yay. "Over there, that's Azazel, he's the youngest," he pointed to a male with platinum blonde hair and pretty pale eyes. "Next to Azazel is Belladonna, my little sister," Perfect. She's beautiful with loive tinted pale skin and long caramel hair. She's fricken lovely.

"I'm Cerridwen," A gorgeuos, hazel eyed blonde said approaching me. "I'm Alexanders elder sister." Jeez, they're all smokin' hot. "That is my mate over there, Delhi, and his brother Malachai. They don't talk much but they're generall nice vampires." And they're hot.

"And I am Morden," a 'vampire' with soft brown eyes introduced. "Those are my two sisters, Morganna and Josette. We are the newest members of this coven." He said with an undefined accent.

"That's nice and all," I said, "But to tell you the truth, I'm not interested in any cults. So, I'm just going to take Brandy and leave..." I said, heading towards the bed. Gaspard moved quickly and picked up Brandy's limp body off the bed. With this movement, he exposed two bleeding holes on her neck, near her throat. Fuck me sideways...they are vampires! My heart started to pound heavily and I could feel the fear rise into my body.

"Don't be afraid, sweetheart," Alexander sang in my head. How the hell does he do that? "She's not dead, not yet. She'll be one of us by tomorrow. You can, too."

"But...but.." I stumbled to find the words. I've always wanted to be a vampire but I've never believed that they existed. But they do. They fucking do!...now what do I do?

"Don't fight us," Alexander said not in my head now. He moved closer to me and cupped his hands around my face. "You can spend a lifetime with me, or hundreds of lifetimes. Me, you, Brandy, Gaspard, everyone! You'll never be lonely, you'll never be old, you'll never die. We'll all live perfectly together."

Sleep all day. Party all night. Never grow old. Never die. It's fun to be a vampire. Damn the Lost Boys and Keifer Sutherland.

"I-I don't knwo Alex-" Before I could finish, he pulled my face to his and our lips collided like water splashing upagainst a rocky shore. So many emotions were pulsing through my veins. Excitement, lust, sadness, happiness, anger, but most of all...love.

Our lips parted and I yearned for more. I gazed upon the faces in the room and thought about this. Whether or not I make it out alive, I know my decision now as I gaze upon the limp bosy of my best friend still cradled in Gaspards arms.

                                      ...she twitches, he sets her down. She's not dead. She's a vampire, or turning.

I look at Alexander and looked into his eyes and gave him my anwer. He smiled, exposing his fangs. He leaned toward my neck and breathed a beautiful scent against my skin.

"Now this will only hurt a bit." My heart pounded, my hands shook, and I couldn't help but yelp as his fangs sunk into my flesh. Blood dripped down my neck, and I felt my skin go cold.

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I hope it isn't shit, but I hope you like it Aleena XD ♥

MTV's MADE is supposedly coming to my school at some time. I really want to be MADE into like a model or something. I have to go to my guidance counselor or Vice Principle to find out when the auditions are. I really want to be MADE!

*sighs* You know what I hate? When people, random ass people, leave obscene comments on my page that I have to delete and everything. Well, it hasn't really happened all that much on here, but on my imeem...damn.

Okay, I seriously don't know who this random chick is, but she keeps leaving me obscene comments...she isn't even on my friends list! Here's my page (screen shot), on the side, it says desription and I wrote in it all of the models and what not who I liked, and the one circled is Kiki Kannibal:

And I also have Kiki on my friends list:

And really, I don't see what's wrong with liking Kiki Kannibal. I think she's beautiful and a wonderful model and I know some people don't like her, but there are people who do. And it's stupid for the people who don't like Kiki to send the people that do nasty comments. It's stupid.

And the random girl was flipping shit about it. She sends me a comment saying (the first time):

"kiki kannibal should rot in hell"

I was decent about it and replied back saying "Please don't send comments like that to me. Thank you. xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥"

And now, she replies back again saying:

"lmao wtf is wrong with u take a mother fucking laxative"

*sighs* I guess being nice to people nowdays is just the wrong this to do. And usually I'm a nice person, when I get nasty comments, I try to be decent about it. I hate internet drama, it's useless. And seriously, there's another person on the other who's sitting in front of the computer and reading the nasty comments written to them. No one ever knows how they're going to handle it and I think that with what happened to that teenage girl who killed herself after what her ex friends mother did proves that.

So, I deleted that girls comment and blocked her. I don't need that shit.

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

You know how I went back and and checked out the first things I buzzed? Well,I got curious to see what was the first shizzle of mine that you guys buzzed. It's pretty rad. So, here's what you guys first buzzed of mine :) :

Journal: "A Kind of Love To Die For" Chapter 3

Photo: "grrr!!! attack of Gerard's sharpie!"

Video: "Four Winds by Bright Eyes"

Poll: "If You Could Be Any Member of MCR, Who Would It Be?

Right now, I'm at 2,089 buzzes...so...KEEP BUZZING PLEASE! lol

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

Dudes, I'm so bored...like you have no fucking idea...so I just randomly decided to see the recent things that you guys buzzed AND the most recent things I buzzed...

You guys buzzed recently:

Journal: "Freaking PSAT's!!!"

Photo: "I'm The Cat"

Video: "Livin' In A World Without You Offical Video- The Rasmus"

Poll: "Do You Think That Movies Ruin Books Or Make Them Better?"

Most recent things I've buzzed:

Photos: "Audrey Kitching" by newageamazon

Journal: "You Know It's True, You Know It's true. Who's Better Then Our Boys?" -masonvillehour

Video: "Bitch Make Yoself Happy!!!!! lol"- querrillabalze

Poll: "Vampires or Pirates?"- runnerrunner

Link: "Gerard Way: Redhead"- breesays

Haha, so I was sitting on the couch and re-reading "Impulse" and the phone rings. My mom picks it up and she goes, "Who's this?...Joe...Joe H? Oh, Brandy, it's for you...it's some Joe guy." And she hands the phone off to me. And I answer it and i'm like "Hello? Joe?" and Joe goes "Hey Brandy, it's Joe." And I'm like "I know..." And he's like "Hey, do you wanna come over to Nikki's house to parrrrtttaaayyyy!!" and all I hear is Ryan in the background going "That sounded so creepy Joe." and then Nikki's screaming in the background. And then I'm like "Now? You want me to come now?" and he's like "Yeah, i do." and I'm like "I can't I-" ...HE HUNG UP ON ME! lol...that's so like him -_-

My friends are so weird.

Jeez, they're really testing us this year. Instead of having the PSSA's, it that freaking PSAT's. And then we have to take them again next year, and in Senior Year, the SAT's. How glorious.

Anyways, I'm testing next week on Wednesday for THREE HOURS STRAIGHT. Half a day in school and testing. I'm going to freak out. And today, my english teacher showed us the scroes we MUST get to get our desired career. Though, this years PSAT's only determine if we have to take any extra classes next year. And next years PSAT's gets us scholarships and money for college and what not.

Here are my three desired career choices AND the score I have to get:

• Fashion/ Apparel Design: 945 points
• Film/ Video and Photographic Arts: 946 points
• Graphic design: 948 points

And we have practice books and that's what we're working from, but these are the kind of questions I have to answer:

The details in lines 2-5 ("the rocks...needles") serve primarily to illistrate the

A. humorous exaggeration of the narrator's description of Dunamara

B. notable differences between adult and juvenile views of Dunamara

C. characterisitics of Dunamara thhat the narrator valued more than might be expected

D. features that Dunamara shared with more popular beaches

E. narrator's dissatisfaction with typical family vacation

And stuff like this:

If calendars cost k dollars each and notebooks cost p dollars each, which of the following expressions gives the total cost, in dollars, of 6 calendars and 3 notebooks?

A. 3(2k+p)

B. 3(2k+3p)

C. 6(k+p)

D. 6(k+3p)

E. 9(k+p)

And stuff like this too:

In his "American Scholar" address in the summer of 1837, Ralph Waldo Emerson urged his listeners to free themselves from European culture and looking instead to the culture of their own country.

A. cultrue and looking

B. culture, that they should look

C. culture and to look

D. culture, but they must look

E. culture, but looking

I am flipping out! I need to get good scores!!!Ugh!

Two in one day...I owe you lovelies that much :) *and don't get mad at Ville right away okay?*

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Ville was mostly silent on our way over to Mikey and Alicia's house. He was still white as death (no pun intended) and he hasn't really blinked since we found out we were going to have two kids. TWINS!!! But that doesn't mean that I can't still babble endlessly about my complete and utter happiness. "I'm so happy! We're having TWINS! TWO! DOUBLE!" I rambled, just smiling and giggling. "Oh, Ville! This is so WONDERFUL! Way to go! Thanks for two! Oh! I have an idea! You want to hear it?" I looked at him anxiously. He's still not blinking, or looking at me, or saying anything. "Okay, well. I'm going to tell you anyways. I was thinking that I can name the girl, and we already have the name, and you can give her the middle name. And that you can name the boy and I can give him the middle name. Do you like that idea?"

He didn't say anything, buthe started blinking again. That's a good thing, right? Huh, he's spoiling my mood a little. So, I sat back and slumped into my seat. I made a "humph" noise and all Ville did was glean at me.

"Aren't you happy about the twins?" I finally said five minutes later. All he did was exhale deeply and continue to stare out the window and focus on the road (well, it's a good thing that he's focused on the road but I would like some acknowledgement!) I could see Mikey and Alicia's house now. We were nearing it, just about outside of their house when he finally spoke to me, but it wasn't quite what I had expected.

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"H-he said that he was happy about the twins but he hesitated for a long time and then he told me to get out and drove away! What does that mean?! Is he lying to me?! Does he want to leave me?! Oh no no no!" I cried into Alicia and Lyn-Z's arms. Lyn-Z was already over at Alicia's house, so was Gerard. But I sent Gerard and Mikey to go get some food since I'm eating for three now.

"Don't be ridiculous, honey. He loves you so much. Maybe he's just...surprised? Shocked? Scared?" Lyn-Z suggested, trying to calm me down.

"Maybe," I sniffled. "But he was so happy before we found out that we were having two kids. Maybe he doesn't want two kids?"

"Stop with the pessimism (sp?) , Brands. It's not helping the situation," Alicia said logically. "Now, I called Aleena and Synyster to go find and talk to Ville because they love you and really want to help. And if you want to stay over tonight, you're more than welcome, sweetie."

"I feel like I'm High School again," I sniffled and humorlessly chuckled at the same time.

"How's that?" Lyn-Z asked curiously.

"Well, whenever me and my friends had trouble with stupid boys in High School, we'd send two of our friends to hunt them down and get info and everything," I explained. "The only difference now is that I'm pregnant and the stupid boy is my damn husband!"

"We're all teenagers at heart." Lyn-Z smiled.

The front door opened and closed. Soon after, Gerard and Mikey came into the living room with bags of food in hand.

"Hey," Mikey greeted. I attempted to smile but didn't succeed. "Well, we got you some Salt and Vinegar chips, carrots, sour gummi worms, pepsi, pretzels, popcorn, and some ginger snaps."

"And we got some movies if you want to watch them." Gerard added.

"What movies?" I asked quietly.

"Oh, um, 'Queen of the Damned', 'Lost Boys', 'The Crow', and 'Where The Heart Is' because we know you love that movie." Gerard grinned form ear to ear. He made a slight motion for Alicia and Lyn-Z to follow him into the kitchen. I didn't really pay any mind to it, but it seemed important. Before Alicia got up, she asked me a question.

"Are you staying over tonight?"

I haven't really thought about it. I keep expecting Ville to burst through the doors with roses and candies in hands, dropping to his knees and begging my forgiveness. And then he'd take me into his arms and kiss my head and then we'd be happy and go home and talk about the babies. But he hasn't yet.

"Yeah, I am." I said in monotone. She sighed and nodded. All four headed into the kitchen.

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"What is it?" Lyn-Z said as soon as they stepped into the room.

"Okay, just don't tell Brandy about what I'm going to tell you guys, alright?" Mikey said. They nodded and he continued. "When Gerard and I went to the store," he sighed. "We saw Ville outside...with...um...he was with William."

"WHAT?!" Alicia and Lyn-Z belted out in unison.

"Sssshhh!!" Gerard shushed and picked up where Mikey left off. "They were arguing. And from what we heard, it was about Brandy and the twins."

"Yeah, now William knows that she's having twins. Ville thinks William is up to something again..."

"He still wants Brandy and will do anything to get her..."

"Ville is just trying to protect her and the kids...don't tell Brandy about this."

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*Later on, about midnight in Brandys dream"

"Come on Des! Stop being such a wuss!" A young teenage boy said to his sister. The young boy was tall, pale, with caramel colored hair and deep green eyes. He was lean with a glorious bone structure and a beautiful smile.

"I don't know, Kaiden, I don't like the cemetery when it's dark out. And Aunt Alicia and Uncle Mikey are probably really worried," Desdemona said. "Can we go brother?"

Desdemona, a beautiful girl, just as lovley has her twin brother, except with a few differences. Her hair was long and wavy, his was straight, and her bone structure was more defined than his. She was just as tall as him and has the same color eyes and hair.

"Des, you know I'd protect you if zombies rose from their graves," Kaiden said, putting his arm around her shoulder. "Please."

"Okay." She gave in and walked through the big gates with her brother.

They walked around the graveyard for twenty minutes with a flashlight in hand. Their friends had told them about a legend of rising zombies in the cemetery and Kaiden, be adventurous as he is, was set out to prove them wrong...or right.

"This is getting really boring," Desdemona yawned. "Can we go now?"

"Fine." Kaiden sighed in disappointment.

"Little Kaiden and little Desdemona Valo!" a man's voice cried out form thr shadows. The two teenagers stopped dead in their tracks, glanced at each other with panicked eyes, and slowly turned around. "Oh how nice it is to see you two again!" The voice continued. "You two look just like your parents."

"W-who are you?" Des cried in a shaky voice. "Where are you?"

"Just as frightened like your mother would be in this situation," The voice taunted. "You're just like her little Desdemona. The same wavy hair, the same eyes, the same amount of fright in your perfect little voice."

"Leave her alone you asshat!" Kaiden belted out and crushed his sister into his side.

"And you little Kaiden, you're just like your father," The voice said with acid. "Courageous, poetic, charming. And you could probably sing too. The same eyes, the same features, and the same amount of bravery in your voice. You'd probably do anything to protect little Desdemona wouldn't you?"

"Leave us alone!" Kaiden shouted into the air. He turned to his sister and whispered in her ear. "Run, Des, run home!" She looked pained and panicked but she did what she was told. She bolted for the gate, but was caught in mid-air by an invisible voice.

"Kaiden!" She choked out. Kaiden whirled around and saw his sister being taken by the neck and lifted into the air by nothing, or seemed to be nothing.

"What do you want with us! Who are you!" He yelled as he ran toward his sister. The air dropped Des into Kaiden's arms and a man appeared out of nothing. The two teenagers stumbled backwards, frughtened by what they just saw.

"Your mother would just love to see the two of you. She misses you so much." The man said. He was a tall man with pale skin. He was skinny and his hair was short and a reddish brown color.

"Our mother disappeared when we were babies." Kaiden gulped, grasping his sister in his arms.

"Well, that's because I'm the one who took her-"

"And you murdered our father." Kaiden finished.

"William?" Desdemona whispered in fear. The man grinned.

"What do you want with us?" Kaiden asked, stepping in front of his sister in a protecting manner.

"A family."

To be continued...

Sorry it took me a million years to write again. School is just so annoyingly hard...and guess what? I have to take the PSAT's next Wednesday...so review for the rest of this week and next week before Wednesday! Damn...I hate school...and my little cousin should be born next week :) I'm so excited XD Hooray for little Elizabeth Lynn being born soon!

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"What do you mean you saw him too?!" I raised my voice (nearly yelling), Ville flinched. He sighed and leaned back into the couch with his arms over his chest. I'd stand up and put my hands on my hips, but it's getting really hard to stand up nowdays.

"Well," he started, clenching his teeth. "Well, I didn't want to worry you. I thought he was just showing himself to me, not you. I was going to take care of it this morning, or yesterday I guess, but you disappeared and I got worried."

"I left a note...and stuff," I said in my defense. "Okay, when did you start seeing him? Yesterday? Last week?"

"About three months ago." He said quietly. I gasped.

"THREE MONTHS AGO?!" I yelled. Ville flinched again, turning to me with a little bit of shock on his face. But he nodded and sunk back. I quieted my tone a little (I hate yelling at Ville). "Why didn't you tell me or take care of it then?" He shrugged, but looked at me with a hint of confusion in his green eyes.

"Well, why didn't you tell me at Borders?" He asked with acid in his voice. he leaned forward, twisting his torso toward me and placing his hand on his knee to support his weight. "Alicia told me, so I knew before hand," Damn Alicia. "And she also told me that you don't tell me things anymore because you think I'll get mad at you? Why do you think I'm going to get mad at you? That's childish!" His raised his voice a little too.

I didn't answer. My lips tightened into a hard line. I felt tears coming to my eyes but I didn't want to cry. I was frustrated. What a great subject changer. Freaking jerk.

I stood up, a little wobbly. Ville sprung up and grasped my elbow so I don't fall. Right now, with all this emotion bubbling in me, I can feel the tiredness creep up inside of me, making my eyelids heavy. I snatched my elbow back from him. This is seriously our first fight, if you would call it that. Heated argument? Maybe. I turned and started to head upstairs to the bedroom, Ville was behind me with every step.

"Where are you going?" He asked, exasperated.

"I'm trying to storm out," I said, breaking my hard lined lips. "And I'm tired."

"We're not done here, Brandy. We need to talk about his." He reminded me. I turned to face him, but with his height, I was facing his chest. I looked up teary eyed, my mouth a hard line again. I was breathing heavily.

"I don't know why I didn't tell you at Borders. I don't know why I always think you'll get mad at me. Maybe it's because when my mom got married the second time, she married a complete asshole who used to beat us and with every single thing we did, to him, we did it wrong. He'd get mad, Ville, all the time. And now we have a baby on the way and maybe I'm scared that being a father will change you for the worse. Maybe that's it. Maybe I think you're going to be like my step-father." I sobbed. Ville looked pained. Did I really just say that to him? Do I really think that? He threw his arms around me, resting his head on mine, and kissing the top of my head.

"I will never be like your step-father, Brandy. You know why? Because I love you and I would never do anything to hurt you." He whispered in my ear in sobs. I hugged him back, staining his shirt with my tears.

I looked up at him, not really knowing what to say. "Um, I have a doctors appointment tomor-today, at nine. Are you uh coming with me? We can find out the sex of the baby." I slightly smiled. He returned the smile and kissed my forehead.

"Of course." He said. "Let's get to bed, then."

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I woke up to the sound of my annoying alarm clock buzzing in my ear. Ville reached over me and turned it off. I slowly opened my eyes and saw his staring right back at me. He smiled slightly, probably still feeling the emotions of our agrument of earlier this moring. I feel it too, and guilt, I feel a hell of a lot of guilt.

"Doctors appointment in an hour you know." Ville chirped into my ear. I grunted, slowly getting up and getting to my feet. Ville got out of bed before I did. He raced around the bed, taking my arm and helping me up himself. He's such a sweetheart. I threw my arms around him and hugged him. I do not want to let go. He hugged me back of course.

"I'm sorry," I said into his chest. "I didn't mean to get mad and say those mean things to you. I know you wouldn't ever be like my step-father. You're way better than him."

"It's okay, and I'm sorry for making you mad." he smiled, kissing my head.

"Isn't this nice?" I said. "You know, making up after a fight, though it's way better before the fight anyways." Ville laughed and nodded. "Well, I got to get dressed and so do you so lets get ready. I want to see if our baby is either a little Desdemona or a little Kaiden."

"You already chose the names without me?" He looked appalled.

"Well, you can decide the middle name and the first name of our next kid." He laughed. It had taken us at least 15 minutes to get ready, and for Ville to help me with my shoes. Am I supposed to be this big already? It had taken about another 20 minutes to get to the doctors office with like 25 minutes to spare.

I saw the new issue of AP Magazine hanging on the magazine rack and grabbed it, flipping through all the pages. I came upon a picture of Audrey Kitching and two other models posing for Jessica Louise outfits for HotTopic. I love Audrey and Jessica Louise and Hot Topic. Awesome mix.

"Look look! It's Audrey Kitching! She's amazing." I said, pointing out the picture to Ville. He scrutinzed the picture and slightly smiled.

"She's pretty," He said. His smile got wider. "Audrey is a cute middle name. 'Desdemona Audrey Valo'. It has a ring to it." I smiled along with him. "And if it's a boy, then it would be 'Kaiden Aubrey Valo'. That has a ring to it too."

"That'd be badass." I said, my smile never fading.

A nurse came out with a clipboard in hand. She had short, curly blonde hair and glasses. She had big blue eyes and a smile on her face. "Uh, Brandy Valo?" She called out. Ville and I stood up and walked right to her. "Okay, uh the doctor will see you now. And it's door number four. And congrats." She smiled. Everthing is all smiles today.

Ville and I walked into the office, the doctor already waiting for us there. He looked like a nice man. Gray hair, only a little wrinkles, and nice eyes. He isn't our normal doctor, she's on vacation, but he looks like a good one.

"Helo," He said extending his hand toward us to shake our hands. "I'm Doctor Johnson." he said sweetly. "Are you here to find out the sex of your baby?" Ville and I nodded and he continued. "Alright, just lie on the table, and I'll get the gel and the ultrasound is right there." He said. I did exactly how I was told. Ville helped me up on the table thingy and I lied back. The doctor left for a second and came back in with gel.

I lifted my shirt up over my stomach, exposing it and it's hugeness. Dr.Johnson put the extremely cold gel on my stomach and spread it around with the thing for the ultrasound (I don't know what it's called okay?). I heard a weird sound from the machine, the baby's heartbeat. Thump thump, thump thump.

"There's the baby...oh, well the's strange." The doctor said abruptly. My eyes shot to the screen, trying to see what he's seeing.

"What? What is it? What's wrong with my baby?" I cried frantically. I hope nothings wrong. Ville squeezed my hand to calm me down. My heart is pounding in my chest and in my ears.

"Nothings wrong with your baby but...haha, there's two heads." He chuckled.

"My baby has two heads?!" I exhaled loudly. It took me a moment to really figure out what he was saying. "Oh my God! Ville's we're having twins!!! We're going to have a Desdemona AND a Kaiden!...wait, what's the sexes first before I say that.." I asked the doctor pleasantly.

"You're right, boy and girl." he smiled.

"Ville! We're going to have a Desdemona and a Kaiden!" I reiterated. Ville's face was a pale white. His eyes were frozen to the screen in surprise and terror. His eyes were panicked and it kind of looked like he was having a heart-attack.

to be continued...

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sorry if it's kinda sucky.

Sorry it took me a million years to write again. School is just so annoyingly hard...and guess what? I have to take the PSAT's next Wednesday...so review for the rest of this week and next week before Wednesday! Damn...I hate school...and my little cousin should be born next week :) I'm so excited XD Hooray for little Elizabeth Lynn being born soon!

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"What do you mean you saw him too?!" I raised my voice (nearly yelling), Ville flinched. He sighed and leaned back into the couch with his arms over his chest. I'd stand up and put my hands on my hips, but it's getting really hard to stand up nowdays.

"Well," he started, clenching his teeth. "Well, I didn't want to worry you. I thought he was just showing himself to me, not you. I was going to take care of it this morning, or yesterday I guess, but you disappeared and I got worried."

"I left a note...and stuff," I said in my defense. "Okay, when did you start seeing him? Yesterday? Last week?"

"About three months ago." He said quietly. I gasped.

"THREE MONTHS AGO?!" I yelled. Ville flinched again, turning to me with a little bit of shock on his face. But he nodded and sunk back. I quieted my tone a little (I hate yelling at Ville). "Why didn't you tell me or take care of it then?" He shrugged, but looked at me with a hint of confusion in his green eyes.

"Well, why didn't you tell me at Borders?" He asked with acid in his voice. he leaned forward, twisting his torso toward me and placing his hand on his knee to support his weight. "Alicia told me, so I knew before hand," Damn Alicia. "And she also told me that you don't tell me things anymore because you think I'll get mad at you? Why do you think I'm going to get mad at you? That's childish!" His raised his voice a little too.

I didn't answer. My lips tightened into a hard line. I felt tears coming to my eyes but I didn't want to cry. I was frustrated. What a great subject changer. Freaking jerk.

I stood up, a little wobbly. Ville sprung up and grasped my elbow so I don't fall. Right now, with all this emotion bubbling in me, I can feel the tiredness creep up inside of me, making my eyelids heavy. I snatched my elbow back from him. This is seriously our first fight, if you would call it that. Heated argument? Maybe. I turned and started to head upstairs to the bedroom, Ville was behind me with every step.

"Where are you going?" He asked, exasperated.

"I'm trying to storm out," I said, breaking my hard lined lips. "And I'm tired."

"We're not done here, Brandy. We need to talk about his." He reminded me. I turned to face him, but with his height, I was facing his chest. I looked up teary eyed, my mouth a hard line again. I was breathing heavily.

"I don't know why I didn't tell you at Borders. I don't know why I always think you'll get mad at me. Maybe it's because when my mom got married the second time, she married a complete asshole who used to beat us and with every single thing we did, to him, we did it wrong. He'd get mad, Ville, all the time. And now we have a baby on the way and maybe I'm scared that being a father will change you for the worse. Maybe that's it. Maybe I think you're going to be like my step-father." I sobbed. Ville looked pained. Did I really just say that to him? Do I really think that? He threw his arms around me, resting his head on mine, and kissing the top of my head.

"I will never be like your step-father, Brandy. You know why? Because I love you and I would never do anything to hurt you." He whispered in my ear in sobs. I hugged him back, staining his shirt with my tears.

I looked up at him, not really knowing what to say. "Um, I have a doctors appointment tomor-today, at nine. Are you uh coming with me? We can find out the sex of the baby." I slightly smiled. He returned the smile and kissed my forehead.

"Of course." He said. "Let's get to bed, then."

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I woke up to the sound of my annoying alarm clock buzzing in my ear. Ville reached over me and turned it off. I slowly opened my eyes and saw his staring right back at me. He smiled slightly, probably still feeling the emotions of our agrument of earlier this moring. I feel it too, and guilt, I feel a hell of a lot of guilt.

"Doctors appointment in an hour you know." Ville chirped into my ear. I grunted, slowly getting up and getting to my feet. Ville got out of bed before I did. He raced around the bed, taking my arm and helping me up himself. He's such a sweetheart. I threw my arms around him and hugged him. I do not want to let go. He hugged me back of course.

"I'm sorry," I said into his chest. "I didn't mean to get mad and say those mean things to you. I know you wouldn't ever be like my step-father. You're way better than him."

"It's okay, and I'm sorry for making you mad." he smiled, kissing my head.

"Isn't this nice?" I said. "You know, making up after a fight, though it's way better before the fight anyways." Ville laughed and nodded. "Well, I got to get dressed and so do you so lets get ready. I want to see if our baby is either a little Desdemona or a little Kaiden."

"You already chose the names without me?" He looked appalled.

"Well, you can decide the middle name and the first name of our next kid." He laughed. It had taken us at least 15 minutes to get ready, and for Ville to help me with my shoes. Am I supposed to be this big already? It had taken about another 20 minutes to get to the doctors office with like 25 minutes to spare.

I saw the new issue of AP Magazine hanging on the magazine rack and grabbed it, flipping through all the pages. I came upon a picture of Audrey Kitching and two other models posing for Jessica Louise outfits for HotTopic. I love Audrey and Jessica Louise and Hot Topic. Awesome mix.

"Look look! It's Audrey Kitching! She's amazing." I said, pointing out the picture to Ville. He scrutinzed the picture and slightly smiled.

"She's pretty," He said. His smile got wider. "Audrey is a cute middle name. 'Desdemona Audrey Valo'. It has a ring to it." I smiled along with him. "And if it's a boy, then it would be 'Kaiden Aubrey Valo'. That has a ring to it too."

"That'd be badass." I said, my smile never fading.

A nurse came out with a clipboard in hand. She had short, curly blonde hair and glasses. She had big blue eyes and a smile on her face. "Uh, Brandy Valo?" She called out. Ville and I stood up and walked right to her. "Okay, uh the doctor will see you now. And it's door number four. And congrats." She smiled. Everthing is all smiles today.

Ville and I walked into the office, the doctor already waiting for us there. He looked like a nice man. Gray hair, only a little wrinkles, and nice eyes. He isn't our normal doctor, she's on vacation, but he looks like a good one.

"Helo," He said extending his hand toward us to shake our hands. "I'm Doctor Johnson." he said sweetly. "Are you here to find out the sex of your baby?" Ville and I nodded and he continued. "Alright, just lie on the table, and I'll get the gel and the ultrasound is right there." He said. I did exactly how I was told. Ville helped me up on the table thingy and I lied back. The doctor left for a second and came back in with gel.

I lifted my shirt up over my stomach, exposing it and it's hugeness. Dr.Johnson put the extremely cold gel on my stomach and spread it around with the thing for the ultrasound (I don't know what it's called okay?). I heard a weird sound from the machine, the baby's heartbeat. Thump thump, thump thump.

"There's the baby...oh, well the's strange." The doctor said abruptly. My eyes shot to the screen, trying to see what he's seeing.

"What? What is it? What's wrong with my baby?" I cried frantically. I hope nothings wrong. Ville squeezed my hand to calm me down. My heart is pounding in my chest and in my ears.

"Nothings wrong with your baby but...haha, there's two heads." He chuckled.

"My baby has two heads?!" I exhaled loudly. It took me a moment to really figure out what he was saying. "Oh my God! Ville's we're having twins!!! We're going to have a Desdemona AND a Kaiden!...wait, what's the sexes first before I say that.." I asked the doctor pleasantly.

"You're right, boy and girl." he smiled.

"Ville! We're going to have a Desdemona and a Kaiden!" I reiterated. Ville's face was a pale white. His eyes were frozen to the screen in surprise and terror. His eyes were panicked and it kind of looked like he was having a heart-attack.

to be continued...

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sorry if it's kinda sucky.

Okay, so Deanna called me earlier tonight and she goes "I have to ask you a very important question." And I'm like "Okay...what is it?" and she goes "Did you know that Tokio Hotel is playing at the Electric facoty on October 29th?" and I'm like "No, why?" and she goes "You want to go with me, I just bought tickets!" I screamed, and then asked my mom and my mom was like "You have to do all of your chores" ao now I'm happy because I know I can do my chores and I'm going to see Tokio Hotel!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! This is why I love my Deanna...and also we promised each other that if we were to ever go to a Tokio Hotel concert or they randomly turn up at our door step, that we'd be the first people that we'd call ...and I was the first person that she called!!!

I LOVE YOU MY GERARD!!!!!!!!♥♥♥♥♥

And I spelled genious wrong but whatever!!

But seriously...go to www.myspace.com/alexiwindler and listen to his stuff because he's just amazing! And I met him the other day so ha! Listen to "Take My Hand" it's my favorite!!

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

Sorry I haven't posted the next chapter to "Love Reaper" yet. School's been keeping me busy, and I'm starting my service hours next week too. But, I do have off on Thursday so, I hope to have the chapter posted by then so har har. lol.

Anyways, if my dreams couldn't get any weirder...lol...no seriously, I had the funniest dream the other night. I told a couple of my friends about it and they were pretty much astonded by my dream. I seriously have to tell you guys. Oh! And I'll use pictures because I'm like that, haha. Okay, so here's my dream:

In my dream, I was 19 and dating Gaspard Ulliel

(that's Gaspard...he's dreamy lol)

And William Beckett was my best friend

(dude I'm such a traitor *Love Reaper reference*)

And William didn't really like Gaspard because he thought I was too good for Gaspard and shizzle. And one night, Gaspard and I were at my house watching a movie and William calls me.

William: "Is Gaspard there?"

Me: "Yeah. Why?"

William: "Because I just don't feel pretty whenever he's around."

Me: "That's ridiculous! You're adorable!"

William: "Adorable?"

Me: "Yeah. What's wrong with 'adorable?'"

William: "Nothing. I just thought that you'd call me something like 'devilishly handsome.'"

Me: "Fine. You're devilishly hand-Adorable!" and then I hang up. I swear to God I woke up laughing. I have the most random dreams in the world. lol.

Anyhoo, other than the dreams, drama rules my life yet again. Loads of drama with my friends and family. Sucks. And I felt horrible on Friday because I don't think my crush likes me, at all. But whatever, I think I'll live. But I'm not going to tell one of my friends that because ever since I mentioned that I liked someone else, he's lightened up on the stalking me, hopelessly in like with me. Seriously, I don't like him like that. I'm sorry, but if he knew about me thinking my crush doesn't like me and me just not caring (or at least trying) he'd be back at the end of the leash barking. I don't understand guys.

But I started my wallet in my apparel design class and it's awesome XD I can't wait until it's done! And then we're going to make pajama pants, a purse, and then dresses and shizzle. Finally, I can make the clothes I love instead of having to deal with the clothes my mom thinks I like that she buys. I hate that. The other day, she tried buying me a Taylor Swift shirt AND a hannah Montana shirt. I told her that both shirts would have melted my skin off. Like Abercrombie and Fitch. lol.

And my little baby cousin is due in about a week or two. I'm so excited. My first cousin that wasn't taken from us by the state, kidnapped, or disowned. Finally. And her name is going to be Elizabeth Lynn :) I'm going to make her a little doll with the leftover fabric in my apparel design class. My teacher is going to show me how to do it XD

And guess what? My friend made me a copy of the new Jason mraz CD "We sing, we dance, we steal things". It made my life. I had a fangirl moment or two, especially when I listened to "I'm Yours" about a thousand times.

And this morning, Deanna (my Gerard) gave me a necklace with a unicorn pendant with a black gem in it, and she has a matching necklace except with a red gem in it. We call it "Brother Necklaces" because she's Gerard and I'm Mikey :)

And just so you know, my mom gots me two two liters of Pepsi. I'm hyper as shit and I need to do my math homework. lmao.

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

I was on their site again this morning, and I was looking at their releases and they have the lyrics to their new album (fangirl moment) and I'd thought I'd share them with you guys!

1. Livin’ In A World Without You

You told me my darling
Without me you’re nothing
You taught me to look in your eyes
And fed me your sweet lies

Suddenly someone was there in the window
Looking outside at a sky that had never been blue

There's a world without you
I see the light
Livin’ in a world without you
There is hope to guide me
I will survive
Livin’ in a world without you

It's hard to believe that it came to this
You paralyzed my body with a poisoned kiss
For forty days and nights I was chained to your bed
You thought that was the end of the story
Something inside me called freedom came alive
Livin’ in a world without you

You put me together
Then trashed me for pleasure
You used me again and again
Abused me, confused me

Suddenly naked I run through your garden
Right through the gates of the past and I'm finally free

Chorus

2. Ten Black Roses

Life is like a boat in a bottle
Try to sail you can’t with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares

Through the glass you see the same faces
Hear their voices fade like a drone
When your life’s a boat in a bottle
You’re surrounded drifting alone

Don’t leave me now
Stay another day
With me

When you’re sad
And no one knows it
I’ll send you
Black roses
When your heart’s
Dark and frozen
I will send you
Black roses

Far away we wait for each other
I’m still on that road to nowhere
Kiss yourself for me in the mirror
Tie a black rose into your hair

Don’t lose your faith
Share another night
With me

Chorus

Ten black roses
Ten black roses

Your life is like a boat in the bottle
Try to sail you can’t with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares

Chorus

3. Ghost Of Love

I am near you
You don’t see me
Can you feel me
I’m closer than close

Does it hurt
Does it burn
Do you know
What you’ve lost
Are you scared of the dark

Now that you’re gone
All that remains
Is the ghost of love
Deep in my mind
I hear the chains
Of the ghost of love

You are falling
Down underneath
You’ll be crawling
Lower than low

Can you sleep
Can you breathe
When you know
What you’ve done
Tell me where will you run

Chorus

You were flawless
Cruel and thoughtless
And all that you left me
Is the Ghost of love

I’m fading
I’m barley breathing
Can’t hold on
I’m dying
I must be bleeding
Won’t be long

Chorus

4. Justify

So close so far
I’m lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign

The last goodbye
Burns in my mind
Why did I leave you behind
Guess it was too high to climb

Give me a reason
Why would you want me
To live and die
Living a lie
You were the answer
All that I needed
To justify
Justify my life

Someone as beautiful as you
Could do much better it’s true
That didn’t matter to you

I tried so hard to be the one
Its something I couldn’t do
Guess I was under the gun

Chorus

It’s only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin
Someone else

So close so far
I’m lost in time
Ready to follow a sign
If there was only a sign

Chorus

It’s only right
That I should go
And find myself
Before I go and ruin
Someone else

5. Your Forgiveness

It's time for forgiveness
It's time to repent
Time for ascendance
To live without revenge
We'll never be together
It’s time to face the truth

You tell me
Who can make it last forever
Destiny
Couldn't seal our fates together
There's a time for anger
Cause I still bleed from your last kiss
The war is over
And all I need from you is this
Your forgiveness

You were my religion
I gave you my soul
Your body was the light
You were my obsession
I gave you all control
I didn't know your
Heart was cold and made of stone

You tell me
Who can make it last forever
Destiny
Couldn't seal our fates together
There's a time for anger
Cause I still bleed from your last kiss
The war is over
And all I need from you is this
The hardest thing for you to give
Your forgiveness

Chorus

6. Run To You

Tomorrow’s taking me away from you
Like a jealous lover
Kiss me one last time
Before I go down this broken road I follow
You will leave me torn
And sting me like
A thorn from a dying rose
The saddest scent of you will cling to me
I know

I will run to you
When my journey’s over
Wait for me
Keep our love alive
I will dream of you
Till I reach the sun
Then I’ll turn around and run
To you

If I stay with you and linger here
Another moment
I will fade into the scenery
You wouldn’t even see me
I’ve got nothing left to offer you
It’s not that I don’t care
All I ask is that you think of me
I swear

Chorus

I hate to see you cry
The way you look away
Makes me wanna die

Chorus

7. You Got It Wrong

When you found me on the street
Did you think you rescued me
Bet you thought without you I would die
Like a snake you swallowed me
I took it till I couldn’t breathe
Just to bring your fantasies to life
You count on the faithful
To get your way
And to follow your light

You got it wrong now
Cause I don’t give a …
I’m not your believer
You got it wrong so
I guess you’re out of luck
Your dream just lost a dreamer

You fool me with your mystery
Preaching peace and charity
But I see through your vanity and lies
You think you got the best of me
But I will rewrite history
I’ll take back my life to your surprise
If I could make it as painful
As you did for me
I’d be just wasting my time

Chorus

There's a little part of me
That would like to see you cry
Even if it’s just one tear
I know it would never dry

Chorus

8. Lost And Lonely

It feels like the end of time
Like something bad is coming
You’ve been living in the world of lies
Your see through walls are falling
It’s getting hard to except that I’m losing you

I watch as you sleep
Your nightmares break the silence
I can tell that you’re in too deep
Got your mind down to a science
And every time that I touch you
I’m losing you

You’re the eve of my destruction
In the garden of fears

Why am I devastated
You through it all away
Now who’s the one who’s lost and lonely
I gotta break away from you
Who will pay for all the things you’ve done
I’m not the only one

You’re out of control inside
I don’t need x-ray vision
To see all the desperate signs
You made your heart a prison
I took it all out of fear of losing you

In the valley of deception
There is a river of tears

Chorus

So many nights
So many fights
So many days
Too easy to erase

Chorus

9. The Fight

Everything is still and calm
In the dead of night
Right before for the fight
Clouds are gathering for the storm
Destiny decides
Who will live or die

I’ve been waiting for this moment
It’s time for the battle
Even if I never make it
Take me home
I might never get my story
Carved in stone
But I will rise again
The fight is to the end

The pounding of the drums of war
Turns your tears to mud
Rivers turns to blood

If you live to see another day
To take another breathe
Make it life or death

Chorus

Give me strength to carry on
Till my life is done

Everybody wants the glory
But you better remember
The fight is to the end

10. Dangerous Kind

You got me in this situation
You got me backed against the wall
Caught in a web of your creation
I bet you set me up to fall

Once I thought about it
I figured out your wicked ways
There’s no doubt about it
You’d sell your soul to seal the case

You’re the dangerous kind
Now look at what you’ve done to me
What you’ve done to me baby
You’ve gotta criminal mind
Your motive is to plant a seed
Now I’d kill for you baby

You gotta shady reputation
From bed to bed to man to man
Once you deliver your temptation
No one can stop your master plan
Don’t try to lie about it
I don’t believe a thing you say
The more you try to hide it
The more the lies show on your face

Chorus

I’ve been sleeping with the enemy
Now I’m doing the time
Paying up for the crime
Guess you took everything you could from me

Chorus

11. Live Forever

Was it an angel
That knocked on my door
Or was it a wind
Was I still sleeping
Lost in a dream
Or was it you

We swam in the fountains
Beneath the northern stars
We cried from the laughter
And died in each other’s arms

Remember
Live forever
Remember
To live for love

I got back my letters
Ages ago
Your address unknown
I pass a stranger
Who had your eyes
Or was it you

We ran through the graveyard
To catch to midnight sun
We danced drunk and naked
Until the summer was gone

Chorus

Today was a long day. Barack Obama came to my school to really as you all may know. I remember pulling up to school at 7 am and seeing a stage being put together in the middle of our schools stadium. There was a lot of the media there and a line that was full of people of the public. 5,000 people filled our stadium, parking lots, and hills. 2,000 of those were Abington High School students since mostly the whole school went to see Mr.Obama. The whole crowd was all pumped up for the rally. I could tell at that point that this was going to be an interesting rally.

It was cold today. The wind was blowing, there was no warnth, and a lot of peole did not wear any jackets. But, that didn't effect the mood of the audience as they awaited the Senator with high expectations of todays speech.

There were many who spoke before Senator Obama. I can't remember every single person who did, only a few, and those few I remember are Josh Shapiro, Ed Rendell and Bob Casey. Josh Shapiro went before Rendell and Casey to speak a little to us about why he had supported Obama from the very beginning. He talked to us about how great Mr. Obama is and how great he would be as a president. Josh Shapiro had excited the crowd by screaming, "Fire it up!" and the crowd would reply back with a yell of something like, "We're ready!" They'd stomp their feet on the bleechers (many times I thought the bleechers would collaspse), wave their arms and signs in the air, jump up and down, and yell at the top of their lungs.

But all was quieted once the first peole to speak were finished and as we all awaited Barack Obama. The wind started to pick up and the people around me started to get impatient. Half an hour later, Ed Rendell and Bob Casey (and someone else) came onstage to talk about Barack Obama and to introduce him to the large crowd.

Once Senator Obama came onstage, it was utter chaos in the large crowd of Obama supporters. Cheering, screaming, stomping, yelling, jumping, clapping. "Obama! Obama! Obama!" They chanted.

And he started. I must warn you, I couldn't really hear all of the Senators speech over all of the cheering and talking of the corwd, even with all the speakers in the stadium. But I could hear certain parts of his speech that interested me, not just as a McCain supporter (Yes, I do support McCain, but I also love to hear what the other party has to offer) but also as a person who could be effected by these decisions if he does become elected. He told us not to pay attention to McCain's commercials about Obama increasing taxes. He said that he was going to decrease the taxes for 95% of the Middle Class. He promised that he would pull the troops out of Iraq. He promised that he would do everything in his power to help prevent Global Warming, and to help us change our dependency on foreign oil. He promised us a change, and that it wouldn't be easy, but he's try his best to fix this country. And that's basically what the nation wants, someone who'd fight for their country and fix it up after everything that happened with Wall Street.

I'm now torn between both canidates, even though I am not old enough to vote myself, it still effects me too. And if we don't choose the right president, it could go further downhill for us. In my opinion, both Senator McCain and Senator Obama offer something unique to the table and something that could be good for the country. And with each thing that they offer, something bad could happen if it's not done correctly. All I hope as an American is that whoever wins the election in November keeps their promises and actually does some good for this nation. I don't want another Bush, and Iknow many of you don't want another Bush either.

So this year, for all those who are able to vote, vote for who you think is right for the country and for the person who can make this country better. It's not my decision just yet, it's yours.

Tomorrow, Barack Obama is coming to my school. It's kind of an all day thing and I just found out about it today. I'm going to bring my notebook with me tomorrow and I'm going to write a summary about his speech and keep you lovelies posted on it, even if you're pro McCain (like me but I like to hear both sides).

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

Right now, I'm listening to parts from The rasmus's new album "Black Roses" which is OUT NOW! And I HAVE TO GET IT! Just listening to the tracks, or parts of the tracks I should say, just makes me want to get it now but I have to wait till my birthday but seriously it KICKS ASS!!!!!! You can listen to the parts of the tracks on The Rasmus's website:

http://artists.universal-music.de/_widgets/the_rasmus/

AHHH!!!!