Mene Mene Tekel Upharsin

Mostly because it means that tomorrow is Monday and then, it is back to school for five days, and then the weekend again. *sigh* and today is Church day for my sisters and my mom. I don't go to Church, mostly because I believe that you don't realy have to go to Church to believe in God and what not. But my mom is always pissy with me on Sundays because her other two little girls go to Church while the other stays home. At first, she said that there was nothing wrong with me not going to Church (that's when she didn't go herself)...now I'm apparently a 'damn retard' for not going. And, I'm stuck with the household chores too, which I don't really do.

I don't understand why she's not accpeting of my decision of me not going to Church. It doesn't make me any less of a Christain if I don't. I went to Church when I was little and I hated every minute of it. I used to feel like a prisoner there and I felt as if my creatvitity could not develope there. I used to get chastised for not playing with the others or drawing vampires and bloody gore (I was a strange but creative kid okay?). And I used to be chastised for believing in magic (like the "dark" kind).

For fucks sake, I don't have to go to church. So ha.

*end of rant*

Here's the new chapter :) And how was everybody's Turkey Day?

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"But, what do you mean? Who else did he kidnap?" I asked, rising from the bed and positioning myself in front of the pacing Gerard. He stopped, almost walking into me, and looked towards the ground. "Gerard, where's Lyn-Z?" His eyes quickly flickered to me and then back down to the ground. He swallowed, choking down the tears and emotion and looked back at me again.

"She was pregnant when he took her." He said in a small voice. He laughed a humorless laugh and shook his head slightly. "She was pregnant with my child and he took her away from me. He took her and the baby away from me, Brandy." A tear ran down his icy cheek. I threw my arms around his neck, hugging him. He didn't hug back.

"I'm so sorry, Gerard. I'll try to get them back, just for you. I'll get them back." I sobbed, letting go of his neck. His placed his hands on my shoulders and slightly shook me.

"How will you get them back? Do you even know where they are? Do you know where you are, Brandy?" He started to raise his voice. "You're weak! You wouldn't be able to get them back! You'd die trying to get them back and you could kill them too! You're too weak!" I flinched at the sound of his rising tone of voice. Anger flowed through me like the blood ran through my veins. The anger controlled me for a few seconds and before I knew it, my hand collided with Gerards face in a slap. He gasped and jumped back.

"I'm not weak! I can do it! I can bring them back! I can, I can do it." Gerard stared at me with an uncontrollable, undeniable fury flowing through him. Not to self, never slap a vampire...again. "Sorry I slapped you." I mumbled under my breath.

"How can you bring them back, Brandy? He has Jamia and Deanna too. Are you going to carry them?"

"No," I answered curtly. I stared at him for a second, pondering. How will I bring them back? Maybe I'm not strong enough, but I know I can try. Plus, I don't think William would hurt me. He'd probably be thrilled that I am here. Maybe I can have the vampires help me. I suppose that Gerard does have a full coven. We can get Lyn-Z, the baby (or child), Jamia and Deanna back and save my children. He has to help. "You can help me." I suggested. He looked at me for a second, with a thoughtful look on his face.

"How can I help? I've been trying for years." He said, finally relaxing around me.

"Well, you have a coven right?" I questioned. He shrugged and nodded.

"Well, I guess we're more than a coven considering we have like ten vampires. It's basically me, Frank, Ray, Bob, Bill, Tom, Georg, Gustav, Raquel and Zui." He said in a nonchalant voice.

"All we need to do, first, is find out where William is and most likely, that's where I will be and most likely everybody else." Gerard nodded along in agreement. "But how are we going to find out?" I asked aloud. Gerard glanced at the door and a moment later, Frank bursted in, gasping for air.

"What the fuck happened to your face?" Frank asked, noticing the red hand print on Gerards face. I blushed in embarassment and guilt and Frank took notice of that. "Damn, Brandy, you hit hard!"

"Yeah, I thought a vampires skin was supposed to be as hard as marble." I said. Gerard smiled and Frank just laughed.

"Were you expecting to break your hand?" Frank asked with amusement in his face. I nodded.

"Just like when Bella hit Jacob and broke her hand on his face after he kissed her." I smiled and Frank and Gerard rolled their eyes at me. Though Jacob was a werewolf, I didn't think I was that far off. Frank just walked over and hugged me. Vampires are actually quite soft, like a human, except they're immortal and they suck peoples blood.

"So, out of curiosity, Frank. Why did you burst in?" Gerard asked, suddenly getting all serious again. "Where's Bill and Georg?" Frank let go of me and turned around to face Gerard.

"Well, um. We were following Kaiden and Des because they left home. It was somethign about a stupid cemetery legend," Frank started to explain. My heart skipped a few beats and my breathing became heavier. 'Come on Des! Stop being suck a wuss!'... 'I don't know, Kaiden. I don't like the cemetery when it's dark out'...'Des, you know I'd protect you if zombis rose fromt heir graves'.

"He can't protect her from William." I accidently said out loud. Both Gerard Frank turned their heads towards me. I felt a little dizzy with worry and fear. "Did he take them?" I asked in a sob. Frank slowly nodded his head yes. I felt my skin go pale and tears pour our of my eyes like a waterfall. Frank grasped my arms, steadying me.

"Don't worry, Bill and Georg followed him. They're going to call soon and everything will be alright." He said calmly. They can tell us where they are and we can save them and everyone else. Okay, calm down Brandy, maybe this is supposed to happen. Atilla/Trixie said I needed to save them. And maybe this is how I need to save them. Okay, I can do this, I can.

"We need to get everyone ready, Frank. Call raquel and Zui and tell them to get their asses back here as soon as possible." Gerard ordered. Frank obeyed and gently set me down on the edge of the bed. I just stared at him.

"I'm sorry about Jamia, Frankie." I said. Frank tried to smile and failed at it. Frank quickly walked out the door to do what Gerard had ordered him to do. Maybe that's why Frank isn't as funny as he was, because Jamia is gone.

"Stop crying," Gerard said to me, kneeling in front of me. "Stop crying and pull yourself together. He took your kids, Brandy, and we need to get them back and you can't be crying. They need you."

"Okay," I said, inhaling deeply, sniffling, trying to make my tears stop. I shuddered a little as I stood up. Gerard took me wrist and led me out of the room.

 

to be continued...

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sorry if it's a little sucky =/

 

So, I didn't go to school today. Mostly because we really weren't doing anything in school. And that damn pep rally was tofay too, thank God I missed that. I heard it sucked majorly. But basically, Deanna and I hung out for most of the day, I even hung out with Joe for like half an hour and he showed me a really creepy video on youtube. Lol.

But Deanna and I had fun together all day. First, she picked me up and we went back to her house and hung up in her rooms for awhile. But then Joe needed to leave and Deanna was hungry so we left. Deanna and I didn't really know where we wanted to go , mostly because I wasn't hungry and I don't know my way around Glenside. So we ended up walking in circles, crossing train tracks, crossing parks, and running across streets until we were in Keswick. We decided to go to the 711 to get some shizzle to eat. And then I saw Judith! Who I haven't talked too in a million years! She looks so different now:

Yeah, that's Judith for ya. She's changed a lot since 7th grade. But she's still a sweety and she's still adorable.

But anyways, me and Deanna got something to drink and eat and so we left. And we went to Glenside Weldon where Overlook and Highland were merged together for two years because both schools were being rebuilt and what not. And I haven't been there in 4 years, it still looks the same and it still scares the shit outta me. Lol.

But then Deanna's mom picked us up and we went back to her house again. I had to go through pictures she took of me a few weeks ago for the Kaiden Blake thingy for his vampire story. Here's the pics I like:

I wasn't even posing for that one, I was just being a goofball.

Haha tree face

My awesome Angel Winged Necklace

The leaves intrigue me

Sometimes I worry too much lol

I wasn't paying attention lol

Deanna's cat decided to join us lol

Yeah, I know, I'm not pretty but whatever. It's not for looks, lol. But people kept thinking that my hand was actually bleeding but all it was was red nail polish, lmao.

Anyhoo, after that Deanna and I decided to go to the mall. The first store we went into was Hot Topic (of course!) And we were randomly looking around and we kept looking for Tokio Hotel shirts. And Deanna was freaking out because she wanted to know where they were. So, we asked one of the worker dudes where the shirts were and he was like "Under the Panic At The Disco shirts over there" and we were like "Oh, okay...wait, where is Panic At The Disco?!" And they guy basically pulled us along to show us and he was like "It's in the third basket down" and we were like "Okay" and I look up and they were RIGHT THERE! Me and Deanna felt so stupid because they were in the most obvious olace and we passed them like 10 times. Lol. BUt we ended up buying The Umbrella Academy and a stress weiner thingy (lol she says it my bday gift lol!)

We went to Borders after that because her mom needed to get some books and we went to go buy them and what not. And then, we didn't really know what to do after wards, so we went to the Sweet Factory to get some more candy. And it was os funny, Deanna went to the Alphabet gummies and she said "I always come here and get these letters :G-E-R-A-R-D, B-I-L-L, T-O-M, and K-A-U-L-I-T-Z." And I kept trying to figure out what she was spelling and it took me like five minutes to figure it out. And after we go the letter, we had to get some Gerards (Sour Gummi Worms...we name candies after famous musicians lol) and some Toms (Skittles) and then we paid for it and what not and we back up to the third floor to get something to eat.

So, I got Sabarros pizza and she got Taco Bell. And you know who we ran into again? Judith! Judith was like "What the hell? I see you guys like everywhere!" lol. And then Deanna and I spent the next 15 minutes reading The Umbrella Academy and then we decided to wait for her mom outside. But then...we got a little side tracked. Yeah, guess who was there? Ali! He was right there! As we were leaving! He was the one that me and Deanna were behind last Friday and she kept saying "he's so hott...look at his butt...he smells good"...yeah! Him! But, I wanted to leave extra quickly, but no. She pulled me to the side and was like "Brandy I have to show you something" and you knwo what she does? She takes a picture of him! lol...here it is: (it's his back basically)

You can't really see his face (or his butt) but let me tell you this, he is one of the hottest guys on the face of this planet! But, i would never date him....lol

And that was my day because after that, she drove me home, my mom gave me a vintage pepsi which I couldn't open and now I'm on here. lol.

So how was your guys' day?

 

Sorry it took me another million years to write. Every single time I tried to write this chapter, something stupid came up *grrr* but I'm not going to school tomorrow, so nothing will come up right now *I think*...anyhoo, here's chapter 19! (God, this picture of Ville is sexy)

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"I just don't understand why all of this happened to us. All of us. It's like God is bored is playing with our lives, you know?" I sniffled. Things have been hard these last few years, for every single one of us. I remember when Sofia, the night she died, told me to my face that she couldn't handle it anymore. Well, she said afterwards that she didn;t mean it, but I could tell that apart of her did. But if any of this didn't happen, Gerard and Lyn-Z wouldn't be together and there most likely wouldn't be Des and Kaiden, but it is still so hard.

"You know, from what you told me Frank, about everything you described. That didn't happen, well, in our memories. It didn't go that way. You had the kids full term and you were never in a coma and we've never heard of Atilla/Trixie." Gerard said in a thoughtful sigh. He started to fidget with his fingers and he stared at his feet.

"How was it supposed to go?" I said in barely a whisper. He looked at me with chrystalline eyes. His eyes sparkled with tears, but he choked them back and looked at my with an emotionless face, or so he wanted it to look like. He slowly got up from the bed and walked slwoly to a dresser drawer that was neatly placed by the door. He opened a drawer and pulled out an envelope with "Gerard" written on the front. He walked back to me and extended the letter to me, not looking me in the eye. "What's this?" I asked taking the letter form his hand.

"You wrote this for me fourteen years ago. You-you didn't disappear until the kids were at least two years old. You explain in all in this. Read." He ordered, taking his place back on the bed next to me. I slowly opened the envelope and took out the letter. It read:

"Dear Gerard,
          Wow, I thought that I would never write a letter like this, but, unfortunately, I am. This is really hard for me to write, and I know it must be hard for you to read. I'm sorry for everything that happened, Gerard. I never meant for it to happen and I hope you can forgive me. It's been hard for me these last two years, and I know it's been hard for you, too. I can't stand not being friends with you. I've always known you to be right there when I needed you, and now you're gone.

           But this isn't really about what happened between me and you. You know what happened, I know what happened, and I can't explain it fully or why I had done what I did. I need to ask you a favor, Gerard. And I know it's hard to ask something of you now at this point. But it's not for me, it's for Kaiden and Desdemona. I just need you to look out for them. You see, I'm not going to be here much longer. William is after me again and I can't risk losing my babies. They're all that I've got and with Ville gone, it just makes things harder. I did leave the kids with Mikey and Alicia, but I fear that it's not enough. You know how strong William is. I can't have my children, my babies, caught up in William's wrath.

          I hope this isn't too much to ask of you. And all I can hope for is that you do this, this one thing for me. No, not for me, for Kaiden and Desdemona. I hope you don't take what happened between us out on them. I trust that you will do what your heart tells you to do. I do trust you, Gerard, and I do miss you, more than anything.

         I wish you nothing but the best. And I wish you a safe, immortal life. Farewell, my old friend.

                                                                                                                                           With Love,
                                                                                                                                                 Brandy Lynn Valo

P.S. Try not to kill anyone, well, anyone that's not Chris or William."

My mouth hung open in surprise in horror as I read this. Gerard and I not friends? William being all strong and powerful? What had happened between Gerard and I? What had made us not talk for two years? What did I do to him? I can't imagine a life without Gerard. I can't imagine not talking to him, joking with him, hanging out with him, jamming with him, annoying him, or anything. I lost part of myself when Sofia died, I know I'd lose another part of myself if Gerard and I never talked again. It would be just like he was dead. Was I walking around breathless for two years? And heartless too with Ville gone?

"We...we stopped being friends?" I choked out in a sore throat. More tears emerged on my face, dropping out of my eyes like raindrops. Gerard looked at me with a pained face an then he looked away like I was the most ugliest thing he has ever seen in his whole life. "What happened between us, Gerard? What-what did I do?"

He inhaled deeply and pushed back the loose hair in front of his eyes. He was sad, and angry. He was sad because of me and he was angry at me. "You said you couldn't be friends with leeches." He said lowly. "You said that I was a cold hearted murderer and you could't accept that."

"I would never-"

"But you did." He snapped. He took in deep breaths, calming breaths, and his face was blank again. "You did. But I know you never meant it. But you left me, you left all of us, all alone because Reapers and Vampires are immortal enemies. You chose Ville over all of us. And then, he left. Vanished, disappeared. He disappeared only seven months after Kaiden and Desdemona were born," he paused, recollecting his thoughts. "I never fully understood why you would choose the Reapers over us, considering that they have done every single thing they could to keep you and Ville apart." He fought back angry words, angry expressions. "You left me when I needed you most."

"I'm sorry." I sobbed, covering my face with my hands. I sound like an awful, awful person. I could never fathom why I would do something like that. Why would I do something like that? I would never do that to him, but I did, or I would have if William didn't change anything.

"Well, it's okay, I guess. Mostly because technically you haven't done it yet." I gazed up at him, and he stared back but with questioning eyes. I can tell what he's thinking. He's thinking why didn't the future change with the changes that William made. I'm wondering the same thing, unless what I'm supposed to do has been posponed somehow. Or maybe they happened earlier.

"Why did I stop being friends with everybody else? Was it for the same reason?" I asked curiously. He gave me a side glance and got up from the bed and began to pace the room. He thought for a few minutes, thinking back on these last supposed fourteen years, or sixteen, I guess.

"Yes, it was. Only," he began to explain. "Only it wasn't their fault. After I was turned, I bite Frank and Ray, and Ray bite Bob. Us four were all turned. And it was only a month before things started to unfold. William had been extremely angry for an extremely long time, but you know that. He was the reason why you found out that we were vampires. You knew that not all of us were vamps, but you couldn't risk it, you couldn't risk your family."

"Where is everybody now?"

"Things, bad things, happened after you left," he started off. "When I read the letter the first time, I seriously thought you were just being a crazy, suicidal bitch. But I read it again, and again, and I figured it out. You knew that William was going to kidnap you and you knew that he would try something with the kids. You were doing what was right for them. But, apparently, you weren't the only one he kidnapped."

 

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Sorry I cut this short. I didn't want to give away all the details. So Im going to ask you guys this question: Who do you think got kidnapped?

Sorry, A little Ackmed there. But first, before I get into some really troubling shizzle, let me just say CONGRATS GEE AND LYN-Z! I LOVE YOU BOTH AND I HOPE THE BABY IS HEALTHY (when it's born)!

Okay, so earlier tonight, some people call my older sister and start threatening her on the phone saying that they were going to beat her up. And my sister was like "Well, you can come over here, but I'm not going to fight you" to them over and over and over again. And basically me, my mom, and even my lil sister didn't think that they were going to come over here, but they did, and my mom wasn't even home. And guess how many of them there were? Ten. So my older sister goes outside to tell them to get off our property, while I tell my little sister to go to the bedroom while I call the cops. So, I dial 9-1-1 and the lady was like "Where is the location of your emergency?" and I tell her and she was like "Please state your emergency" and I was like "Well, there are people her at my house trying to fight my older sister." And she's like "how many of them are there?" and I'm like "I dunno, ten I think" and then she asks me "What are their genders?" and I'm like "Well, all I can see is one guy and the rest are girls" and she's like "Is there an adult at your house?" and I'm like "No, my mom went to KFC to get dinner. It's only me, I'm 15, my older sister, who's 17, and my little sister, who's 10." And she's like "Please stay on the phone with me until a cop cars comes. Do you see a cop in front of your house?" and I look out the window and I'm like "Yes" and then I hang up. So I grab my coat and go outside, and there's not just one cop car, there's 5. At that point, I'm like "Holy shit" cuz there was a lot of cops there, there was like 20 cops. And my sister didn't do anything and they didn't even arrest those damn kids. Damn. And all of this was because of my sisters stupid ass ex.

*sighs* Kids these days.

But congrats to Gee and Lyn-Z again because I'm extra happy about that!

I can't stop listening to William Control. He's like Herion, he's so addicting.

Anyway, I'm posting the next chapter of "Love Reaper" later on tonight because I'm about to go somewhere soon. I was going to post it last night but i had to leave too *rolls eyes*.

But, my gym teacher is such a creeper. We started swimming in class (we have ten swimming classes) and I don't have a bathing suit and it's that time of month for me, but I told him I don't have a bathing suit and he was so adament for me to be in a bathing suit, it was os creepy. And then when I was talking to this dude Joe who's in my class, my gym teacher noticed and and he was like "Brandy, you're over here now. When the beach balls land on the floor here you have to go get it" I was so far away and Joe went to help too and my teacher was like "No, Brandy has to do it" and when the ball landed at my teachers feet, like literally at his feet, he still made me get it and watched me too. And he was watching the girls in the water (not so much the boys) and it was soooo creepy.

School sucks. My friends are fighting or they hate each other, I have two E's, and the guy I like, well, I don't think he likes me back and if he does, he's pretty damn good at hiding it.

Well, I have no idea why most of my friends are fueding with one another but it's really getting annoying. "She's being such a bitch" or "Its her boyfriends fault for why she's acing like this" or "She's such a slut" or "She's only doing that to piss me off and it's working". God, I hate getting caught in the middle. I never get in any fights with my friends but I always get caught up in their fights and pisses me off. It's only November and they're fueding. It's just like last year and eighth grade *rolls eyes*

And I have two E's. One in Geometry and one in Chemistry. I'm working on getting them higher, I am, but they just fucking suck. And when I got my report card today, my mom is like "Your sister is doing better than you. It's a sign of the Apocalypse." And shit like that. But in every other class I have A's and B's while my sister has one B's and mostly C's and D's.

And with the guy I like, I see him every day and I always have a huge smile on my face when I see him and then I stop breathing. And when he says "Hey" to me (with an incredible deep voice), I always choke out a small squeak of a "hi". I hope he likes me back =/

But this is kind of funny, this is about a different dude. I don't really like him like him, but he's fucking gorgeous and i can't deny that. Well, his name is Ali (the sexy punk rocker who looks like a God in skinny jeans) and yesterday, Deanna and I were walking out of lunch and Ali just happens to be walking in front of us. And Deanna's like "Look look, he's so hott". And I nodd in agreement. And then she goes "Look at his butt! It's amazing!" And i look (I swear to God he probably heard us) and then she goes "Wow, he smells so good!" And Ali randomly screams out "Who the fuck exploded a fucking axe can?!" And Deanna and I crack up and he turns around and looks at me like really awkwardly and i could't stop laughing (and I have a zebra like laugh that everyone for some reason finds adorable). I see him Monday and he'll probably tell his frineds I looked at his butt (no one can blame me because he's FINE).

 

o.O woah this picture is B-I-G! hahaha. Here's the next chapter! I hope it's not shit!

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'What is she doing here?'
'Do you think I know? Maybe she escaped somehow?'
'Without Ville? Yeah, good luck with that, Frank. The whole reason she stayed was for Ville and I don't see him anywhere.'
'Well....what if he killed Ville and she ran? What if she's looking for Kaiden and Des?'
'No, she wouldn't try to look for them, especially if William is still around. *sigh* Let's take her home and try to wake her up.'
'Okay. You know, after sixteen years, she still looks pretty young. William must have done something to make her immortal.'
'Yeah, maybe.'

My eyes slowly flutter open to find another pair of eyes, hazel eyes, staring right back at me. They smiled at me, though I prorbably looked petrified. Where the hell am I? What is Frank doing here? What the hell happened to Ville, Jason and Atilla/Trixie? Oh Lord, please don't tell me I lost my memory again. I jumped up in the bed that I was in, my head colliding with Franks, desparately looking around for my Reaper. The room was beautiful, old, but lovely. The walls where a deep red color with dark, wooden floors and loads of black lace antique furniture. And Gerard was sitting in the corner looking at me with disdain on his face. Frank, was holding his head in pain.

"What the hell, Brandy?" Frank choked out. He looks so different. No, not different, the same. Am I in the future? Or am I in a really different present or past? Did it work? Am I where I'm supposed to be? "Jeez, has your head gotten thicker or did you fill it with rocks?"

"Um, I'm corporial." I said weakly. Oh yay, I have a pounding headache. Wait, no, not yay, ouch. His head is as hard as a cement block! And now, I'm feeling the pain.

My eyes re-scanned the room and I've noticed that there is no windows, barely any light, only a dim light from the lamp on the floor on the side of the room that Gerard is on. They both seem so eerily different. Maybe they're pissed...? At me? God, where is Ville?

"Corporial? You mean you weren't?" Frank said, finally shaking off his headache. I nodded and he seemed confused, and then his facial expression went serious. "Did William leave you out there? Did...did he kill Ville?" I gasped, brining my hand up to my mouth, but then lowered it in an undeciding way. I mmust be in the future. Okay, I was in 2008...okay, I just need to ask what year it is.

"If you're wondering what year it is," Gerard started in a monotone voice from the other end of the room. "It's 2024. Either your memory is fucked or William kept you there too long."

"I think it's the first one. And seriously? It's 2024? That means it worked. And....shit! I need to find Kaiden and Desdemona right now guys! I need to save them!" I jumped out of the bed and ran for the door. Only then did I notice I wasn't wearing a hospital gown anymore. I was wearing guy clothes. And no shoes. I skidded to a hault in front of the door. Gerard was in front of it, blocking my way. But...he was all the way over there. Damn. Or, damned.

"Wait, what do you mean?" He said in a suddenly eager voice. He and Frank hadn't aged a day. "What worked? Why do you need to save Kaiden and Desdemona? What happened?"

For the next 15 minutes, I had explained to them about everything. I explained that I was obviously sent to the future and how William was going to kidnap my kids. I told them about me being a spirit and how I was corporialized. I told them about Maggie and Sarah too and about meeting Jason Mraz in the meadow and waking up here.

"Well, I guess that's probably why your memory is fucked. You were corporialized and you obviously don't remember it at all. But I don't know about Kaiden and Des," Frank sighed. For some reason, I was expecting some cute Frank response. Something about cookies or something. A lot has changed I guess. "Gerard or I can go to their house and check up on them."

"Okay. Frank, you and Bill go check up on the twins and I'll stay here with Brandy. And you may want to bring Georg with you too, just in case." Gerard ordered. Frank obeyed and started towards the door.

"Wait. Who's Bill and Georg? Why would you need more than one person to check in on them?" I questioned. My eyes flickered between the two. "So when did you guys become vampires? Why aren't Des and Kaiden with you guys? Is Ville dead? because in my dream Kaiden thought he was dead? What's going on? Can somebody please explain things to me?"

"Calm down, little one." Gerard put his hand on my shoulder. Now I'm cold. "Frank, go get Bill and Georg and check up on the kids to make sure that William doesn't have them. You guys can even talk to Mikey and Alicia if needed. I'll explain things to her. She needs to hear it from me." Frank nodded again and walked out the door, gently closing it behind him. Gerard gently led me to the end of the bed and sat me on it and sat next to me.

"Gerard, what's really going on? Why is this happening? Why the hell am I breaking down now?" I put my head on Gerards shoulder, sobbing. I felt him flinch once I did so. This is really a bad time for me to have a mental breakdown. The last time I had one was in the ninth grade and I went home early because I couldn't contain my crying. I can't go home now.

"This is going to be very hard to explain to you..."

 

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Sorry if this is extra shitty but my friend is extra sad and I really need to cheer her up right now (I hate it when my friends are sad) and sorry if this is extra short too....

 

This is probably the most random thing that I'm going to do all day. Right now I'm in Academic English class (not regular english) and we're on the lap-tops because we were taking a test on it and what not.

So I am done, and I have "free-time" so I just wanted to say s'up buzznet. Haha, I feel like Alex from All Time Low right now. Lol.

And also, who's going to go see Twilight?!?! Who already saw it? If you saw it already, don't tell me anything until I see it yet because I'm actually going to o critque the movie with my pencil and notebook! Haha...I'm a really big Twilight fangirl so...lol yeah

Adios now! The bell is going to ring soon!

Sorry it took me a million years for me to write again. Shit has been happening and now I am sick...damn it. Yeah, sore throat, sick to my stomach, and killer headaches. Funny thing too, I have no fever, but there were about two or three other kids in the Health Suite in school today with the same symptoms, no fevers...same with my mom too. Epidemic? Eh, probably the flu or something...Anyhoo, here is it...sorry if it's shitty

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"Can't we just poof there?" I asked as Ville, Atilla/Trixie and I walked through a field that is no where near the damn hospital. It's winter and if I were in my damn body, then I would be freezing and now I'm thanking the Lord that I'm not (well kind of). I can see Atilla shaking a bit, Ville too though he's usually as cold as death. I've never really asked Ville if Reapers could feel hot or cold, I guess I kind of guessed that they did. I need to save that question for later.

"No, we can't," Atilla/Trixie replied in a harsh tone. A fog formed in front of her face as she spoke to me. Her pale face was tinted pink at the cheeks and nose. And her ears too. "It's just a bit further." She added, probably giving herself some false hope. There was a few inches of snow on the ground. Funny, it's only November and we've had nothing but warm weather up until now. Maybe the weathers pissed at William too? Haha, that would be funny. But it was beautiful around me, I have to admit that. The unexpected wildflowers were just popping out of the snow with petals surrounding the snowy surface. The snowy ground looked like diamonds and broken glass as they glistened in the slight sunlight.

Snow started to fall again, gently. I looked down at my feet, then at Ville's and then at Atilla/Trixie's. The only difference between their footprints and mine are that they actually making footprints in the snow. I'm not. One of kicks of being a soul/ghost thingy. I stuck my hand out as if I were going to catch a snow flake, instead, I watched a snow flake fall right through my hand. I sighed and Ville took my outstretched hand in his. He smiled and I couldn't really return it back. This is so depressing.

"Just up that hill," Atilla said through clentched teeth a few moments later. She nodded her head  in the direction of a green hill. Green hill, untouched by snow. Cool, well, kind of. It's kind of Narnia-ish too, you know, when Lucy, Susan, and Peter were with the Beavers and beyond the snowy-ness there was a lot of untouched land and stuff. That's what the hill reminds me of. Narnia.

As we walked up the hill, I heard a familiar song being sung and a guitar tune being played and started to sing a bit to it.

"So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours..." I sang along with the voice from beyond the hill. Ville snickered and Atilla/Trixie rolled her eyes at me. I smiled a bit, proud that I memorized the lyrics. In case you were wondering, that was "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. And whoever that person is, they have a great taste in music.

We walked to the top of the hill and the heat suddenly changed. It was warmer, like someone finally turned the damn heater on. And we faced a meadow looking scenery. It was beautiful. Big and strong Weeping Willows, rose bushes thrown about and grass about a foot high. And a man in the middle of it all with a guitar in his hands. I stopped dead in my tracks.

"Ville," I said somewhat amazed. "What is Jason Mraz doing here?" Wait, wrong person to ask, need to ask Atilla/Trixie. Ville shrugged his shoulders and as I turned to ask Atilla/Trixie, she was gone. I found her approaching Jason with a smile on her face. He stopped playing his guitar and looked up in our diretion. My cheeks burned.

Atilla/Trixie motioned for Ville and I to join them. I tried walking down as coolly as could, but dude, it's Jason friggin' Mraz. Though, I should be used to hanging around famous singers considering  my husband is one and so are my best friends. I squeezed Ville's hand and he giggled.

"S'up?" Jason said as Ville and I approached him and Atilla. "I'm Jason Mraz if you guys didn't know." He extended his hand towards us. Wait, he can see me?

"You can see me?" I blurted out without thinking. Jason choked out a laugh and Atilla smacked herself on the forehead. I'm missing something, I know I am.

"You didn't tell them, Trix?" He sighed and she shook her head no in an apologetic way. "Well, I'm a witch. It's as simple as that." He smiled.

"Oh," I said in a sigh of relief. For some reason, I thought he was another Reaper. Though, I do have a romantic taste in Reapers. "So, are you the witch who's going to corporialize me and shizzle?" I had to add the 'shizzle'. I need to stop using that word. Haha.

"Well, no. But I can help if you guys want." He suggested with a grin. Atilla grinned back.

"That would be cool," She said. "Plus, I need you to help me call S-"

"Call? Like a phone?" I interupted in a curious tone. Jason giggled again and so did Ville and Atilla/Trixie.

"No, sweetheart. I think by 'call' they mean summon." Ville explained. I nodded in a response back and squeezed his hand again.

"Okay, um, well then I'm going to need a few things, especially sense she might not be allowed to be summoned." Jason sighed and set down his guitar on the soft ground.

"Should I get Ryan and Zui?" Atilla/Trixie asked. Jason nodded yes. "Okay, I'll be right back. I think Ville would ge able to get the things you need." Atilla pointed her thumb in the direction of Ville. She was gone in a second, literally, she like poofed too.

"Was is it you need?" Ville asked. Jason thought for a moment and answered.

"I'm going to need five thick, non-scented candles,  some incense, a rose, which I can get here, a knife, and a thorn. Oh, and a pen and paper." Jason listed off. Ville sighed and turned towards me. He kissed my cheek and whispered 'I'll be right back' in my ear, making me blush. I always blush when he does that. He left in under a second too.

Now, I'm in a meadow with Jason Mraz. Awkward, a bit. Now what do we do while we wait for Ville and Atilla/Trixie? I sighed and plopped myself down on the ground, Jason did the same. I sat staring at his guitar and trying to not fangirl majorly. Hmmm, thought just popped up in my head.

"While we wait," I started with a slight smile. "Can you sing me a song?" he laughed.

 To be continued...

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yeah...sorry if it's extra shitty =/

I was watching it last night, and when Ackmed was going to sing, they calld out a "guitar guy" and Jeff Dunham was like "This is Brian Haner" and what not and I was like  IT'S SYN'S DAD! HOLY SHIT! And Ackmed and Peanut were making fun of him, it was so funny!

And now, I must go sing "Oh Holy Crap"....*oh holy crap, I think I blew my foot off* hahah!

I fucking love you Genna (neontheinsane)! She wroted me a song! hahaha! I love her so fucking much! Here's the song!

THE BRANDY SONG
Brandy! Brandy!
It's fucking Brandy!
She's named after scotch, so she's no pansy!
She loves Ville Valo
And Kitching too
Maybe if you were nice,
She'd love you too!

Buzznet and emailing are her hobbies
She's pretty awesome when it comes to blogging
If she's pissed off, oh shit,
You better run
But if she's not,
She's loads and loads of fun!

Anyway,
She's Brandy! She's Brandy!
She's pretty sweet, she's Brandy!
Holy balls, it's Brandy!
Not the rum, dipshit,
SHE'S BRANDY!

I love this girl.

I♥YOU GENNA!!!!

 

 

Okay, I swear I'm Bipolar. (I am a little but not severly). I am happy that me and my sister found our dad, but we have only talked to him twice and I can tell that he still drinks (he has mentioned it a lot). And I don't really know and I can't seem to put a personality to him just yet. Yesterday when he called he asked us to send something to him because he doesn't have our exact address and it's easier to have it when it's sent in the mail or something. And he said so he knows where to send the Christmas stuff he wants to send us. He asked us what we wanted for Christmas because we're not little anymore, and my older sister said "Plane tickets so we can come see you." I was like, "I'm not ready to see him." But he's looking to see if he can get plane tickets.

I'm not ready to see him. I'm happy that we found him but I don't know how he's going to act around us. I want to make sure first but my sister keeps pushing me. She's like "I want to see him before I get shipped off to bootcamp." All I said was "I'm not ready to see him. He's hasn't been around us our whole lives and we just found him. How do you know that he's going to act like that when we go se him? I don't trust him yet. I don't know him." And she keeps pushing me and pushing me and it's not fair. I hate that she does this to me. We only talked to him twice so far and we barely know anything about him. How do we know that he's not going to hurt us again?

*sigh* Why am I so pessimistic? I AM happy that we found him, I really am. I'm just not ready to see him yet.I'm not like my sister, I don't trust easily. She jumps into every relationship that she can and it usual ends up bad and I have to handle of of her pain, and my own. I don't want that to happen again. I just wish this was easier, you know? Maybe if I knew him a little longer I would think differently. Maybe not?

Well, I'm off now. Mostly because my stupid sisters boyfriend stole all of my moms credit cards and purchased jewelry with the cards and my mom is pissed and they went to go look for the person he's staying with to get info and what not. *sigh* Today is just not a good day.

I have writers block...I hate writers block *bangs head on desk*

Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
I don't have one :) But if I did, it'd be pretty weird to have on my butt I guess =/

Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
No. Just, no. I went there to see a movie, not to swap spit.

Do you have any piercings?
No, I don't think so.

What's the strangest talent you have?
I have a way with knowing things...

Have you ever had two dates in one night?
No. But I had two (or more) pepsi's in one night

How old are you?
I'm fifteen turning sixteen next month baby!

Is there one thing all of your ex's have had in common?
I only had one ex and he was an ass.

Something you really enjoy from the opposite sex?
I'm smarter than most of them (the ones I know) (but no, Nathan is smarter than me...wait I said 'most' never mind)and I don't laugh when people say "boobies"

Did you french kiss before you were 16?
Um, no. I'm not in France you know, haha. But seriously, tongue? I'd like die.

Who is the last person you think about before you fall asleep?
It depends, tonight I'm probably going to think about Georg from Tokio Hotel. Not in a fangirl way of course *shifty eyes*

Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
Hmmm...maybe. I'm not exactly sure. But that'd be cool. Hey people! Write a poem or song for me please. I was deeply appreciate it.

What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
One time, I was driving a four-wheeler and I crash into a pine tree and knocked it down. But I didn't get yelled at, my cousin did though because he was the on who let me drive it.

Name something you do when you're alone?
I actually think.

Where was your default pic taken?
You know what, I have no fricken idea.

What is your current mood?
I'm so happy! Me and my older sister found our biological dad and we talked to him! And the first thing he said when we told him that we were his daughters was "This is the best Christmas present ever!" and he's been looking for us too! OMG!

Where do you wish you were right now?
*thinks for a moment* Either Finland or in a world that i created in my head. That'd be pretty sweet.

Ever had a near death experience?
I had loads, dude, don't get me started.

What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Well, you see, he doesn't really know me. But he always says hi and everything and he's so cute when he's walking down the hallway because he looks mad. And all of my friends know him but me...but I don't think he really likes me. It could have something to do with him not knowing me that well.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
I'm wearing my Overlook school shirt and my MCR hoodie. i got the shirt at school and i got the hoodie for Christmas.

Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Tanya!

What is your natural hair color?
Black baby...but alas, it faded into a brown so I dyed it loads of times

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
My real dad. 

About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
....why would you want to know?....

Do you have any strange phobias?
Yes. I hate broken glass. And rope, mostly because of my dreams. And my step-dad too. Thank God he and my mom are divorced.

Have you ever called your bf/gf by another girl/guys name?
hahaha...my ex...I called him 'Deanna' and that's my best friends name....it's not my fault he sounds like her!

Have you ever been drunk at work?
It could be a possibility since my name is Brandy.

Do you want to bring sexy back?
Eh, maybe. I have to think on it.

If something was wrong,who is the first boy you would go to?
Evan. he makes me laugh to hard, it's not even funny...actually, yes, it is because when I laugh, people laugh because my laugh is hilarious!

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Well, yeah. I'd like to know. And I'm hoping it's the guy I like....

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Probably. Or at least I'd be in a serious relationship. I don't know why, but people seem to like me.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
None actually, except my moms boyfriend and his son.

What’s your hair look like today?
Blah. Just blah. 

Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
I did and then it all went wrong.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Psssht, yeah. I don't know why I said "psssht"but I did. Maybe because it's a cool sound

Where is your boy/girl tonight?
In my head where he belongs.

Last place you held hands with someone? Who was it?
Philadelphia, the Electric Factory, and I was holding hands with Sofia so we didn't get lost...did that makes sense? My grammar I mean...hmmm...

Name something you did yesterday?
....dude I have no fricken idea...

What color are your eyes?
A very deep green with blue around the edges. My eyes are purty, or so they say. Who is 'they' you ask...I have no idea...

What color is your hair?
Right now...honey colored...like a very rich honey...like Edward Cullen but in girl form

Best friend?
Deanna, Sofia, Eryn, Nikki, Rachel and Tanya

Is anyone jealous of you?
Maybe, I'd have to ask to find out.

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
My hair is natuarlly wavy....pisses me off...

Do a lot of people think bad things about you?
Most likely. I give people headaches sometimes. 

Have you ever been punched?
Many times my friend.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Just a few hours ago actually. My sister is a biotch. 

Ever receive a really long apology?
I don't know. Maybe.

Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Yes...I thought they were pedophiles for the longest time...and then I realized my cousin was a year younger than me...

Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
Um yeah...but when I'm actually "legal" ya know

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
Yes, well, I'm a little more depressed than I was last year...maybe. I have been severly depressed these last couple of years...maybe...I don't know

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
You never know...maybe I will...maybe I won;t

This time last year, what was your love life like?
See...I had this crush on this guy but he turned out to be a jerk and then I stopped liking him and then I didn't like anyone else but now I do so yeah

If you could move somewhere else, would you, and where would you move?
Yes and I would move to Helsinki, Finland

If you won A LOT of money? what would you buy first?
A brain...and my common sense back 

Have you ever wished you had a different last name?
I'm changing my last name in two years....thank God. I don't want to have the same last name as that monster

Do you wear a lot of black?
Mostly...but I mostly wear alot of grey too

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
Not many. well, i can't stay up all night if that's what you're asking. Fo shizzle.

Where were you on July 4th?
Somewhere in my sick and twisted mind....muwhahahaha

What did you wear today?
Jeans, a perriwinkle OVERLOOK shirt (why did I write that in caps?), and my Black Parade MCR hoodie

Guess who my sister and I just talked to on the phone...

our real dad! We got in touch with him and we both were crying...even our dad was crying! I'm so happy!

Just a few minutes ago, the mail came and I was talking to our mailman, John. I came inside while my sister was talking to him and I rummaged through the mail and I came across a letter that the both of us were waiting for, a letter from our real dad. Unfortunately, he was not the author of the letters, it was his ex, Patty. But she told us his workplace and address and phone number, we're going to call him when my mom gets home. And she sent us pictures of him, and pictures of us that he kept. But here are the TWO letters she wrote us:

"Dear Christina and Brandy,

I feel it is fitting for me to write you back since the letter came here to my address! I am so sorry to say that your dad has not lived here for 3 years, he walked out on me in January of 2005 for a lady at his workplace with the same name as mine. He has not kept in touch so I don't really know where he is. I do know his work addreess. I believe that is the last place he worked before the divorce in 2005. He has always held a fond spot for you both! I am enclosing same pictures he left here. You both  have probably grown into beauties. (she wrote the address and phone nukber here). I wish you both the best! P.S. I was married to him for 9 years! How time flies!

Sincerely,

Patricia"

And the second one says:

"Your dad left his photo album here! His nickname is Woody! By the pics he seemed like he was really into you girls! Its been 3 years and a part of me misses him and wonders what he is up to! He has moved on! And so have I! You both look like twins! I bet by now your mom and dad are having to hold off all the boys! (ha) I hope you both connect with Charles again!

My best! And God Bless!

Patty"

I'm so happy :)

I found one of my empty journals and guess what? I started writing my next fanfic ;D Don't worry, I'm still doing "Love Reaper" but I started a new one because it's been floating around in my head for a while now XD

My alarm clock screams me awake. I don't know who's voice is waking me up today, weird, because I usually do. Damn radio. I sigh and noticed that it is 5 freaking a.m. I never get up this early on a Sunday morning. Sunday is my relax all day day, my sabbath. No, not the religious Sabbath, my sabbath where I sleep in and watch movies, hang out, draw if I want to or write if I want to, anything.

But not today, today will be stressful, emotional, heartbreaking. Why you ask? Because today my one true love if going back to Germany and today is his final day with me. Well, his final hours I should say. His plane leaves at noon.

I roll over to turn off the alarm. Tom, my german love, slowly wakes up and beats me to the punch. He looks so cute when he wakes. His dreads are askew, kind of messy. The blankets tangle around his legs and there are usually circles around his pretty eyes. And he never really wears a shirt to bed (only when it's cold haha). His smiles at me and his lipring glistens in the light. I lay my head on his bare chest, listening to his heartbeat, and his arms snake around me waist. He whispers "hello" and "I live you" in my ear. I smile and start to think about the first time we met.

Okay, you may think this is either kinky or weird, but Tom and I met in a place where people usually don't meet and fall in love. We met in a bondage club in London. It's the usual place where I hang and "have fun". The first time he and I met was about a year ago and he really wasn't dressed in a bondage club attire. He really stuck out like a sore thumb.

Tom wasn't the usual guy that I would lust after. That's probably what drew me to him, our differences, his mystery to me. He has beautiful, long blonde dreads, "gangsta" clothing and an awesome hat that says "SEX" embrodered (sp?) into it. Not to mention that he's tall and I'm, um, fun-sized. I wasn't the one who had made the first mood or anything though. I was admiring him from a-far andI'm guessing he caught onto that. He approached me with his twin brother and two friends at his side. Just by the way he talked and that super cute accent of his, I was smitten and thanking the Lord that I had brought friends with me that night to occupy the guys with him. Brandy went off with Georg, Deanna went off with Bill, and Eryn went off with Gustav. And I, Sofia, hit it off with Tom.

"I have to get ready, Sofia." Tom said to me, talking me out of my blissful memory.I've been dreading this day for weeks now, just freaking dreading it. I knwo you're probably thinking why not go with him? If you love him, why not go? Why? Because I can't, not yet. I've become too attached to London to leave now.I would love to go with him, just to pick everything up and leave. But, it's not that easy. I'm not ready to let London go yet.

I decided to get dressed too. But I took my sweet time. By the time I was dressed, it was already 6 a.m. and Tom was fixing his hat. He's so cute. Today I wear a very awesome Jessica Louise top with the matching pants and my ever sexy Doc Martens. I plan on trying to find a good book or something to occupy me when he's gone so I don't miss him as much. I know it won;t work out well, but I can try.

A knock comes about our front foor. Tom answers it and I hear a bunch of German coming from the living room. The guys must be here already. I wonder if they said goodbye to their girlfriends (my friends) yet. They probably did, but it sucks. Tom beckons me into the living room and hesitantly, I go. I don't know why I hesitated, maybe it's because I don't want him to leave. I walk out into the living room, and on our couch was Tom, Bill, and Gustav. Where's Georg?

"Where's georg?" I ask aloud. I really don't even know that I did, but I got a response, so I must have. Tom smirked.

"He went to uh Finland with Brandy, remember?" Bill responded. Crap, how could I forget that? I knew they both were going to Finland for awhile. God, I've been so spacey lately.

"Oh." I sighed and plopped next to Tom on the couch. From this angle, I could see his bags at the door, just waiting to be loaded into the car and taken away forever. I try not to think about it sense I only have at least four hours left with him. Four hours, why couldn't be four years or something? And no, I'm not going to the airport with them. I don't want to be one of those hysteric weeping women who won't let their men go until it is almost time for them to board and leave. I promised myself that i wouldn't because if I did, I'd be broken and lonely. I am going to say goodbye to him though. I can't let him leave until I do.

Bill, Tom, Gustav and I just chilled for a few hours, taking random walks down memory lane. All of those godo times we had are now distant memories that all of us possess. Ha, even Tom brought up the first time we met. That was so great. He makes me smile.

The clock now reads 10 a.m., and they have to leave very soon. I hate how the clock ticks and tocks, building up the damn suspense and sorrow inside of me. I want to break so badly. I probably will later on for telling Tom it was time to leave. I could see Tom looking at the clock too with pain in his eyes. he doesn't want to leave either, not without me.

Eleven o'clock. They get up from the couch. I hug Gustav first, then Bill, and then Tom is in front of me with a sincere smile on his lips and love in his eyes. He takes his hat off, the "SEX" one, and places it on my head. It covers my eyes and I giggle. But I, I hand him a picture that I drew for him. Us on our fifth date, just chillin outside Big Ben. We asked some random dude to take the picture, the dude was a creeper, but I'm happy we did get that picture. I have the original, he has the copy. Tom smiles and I can see his eyes steam up. He tries not to show it, but I can see it.

We embrace for a long moment and then we finally pull apart.

"I hope to see you again." He chokes out. A tear runs down my cheek. "I love you, Sofia."

"I love you too." I said, we kiss, a kiss that seemed to last forever, but ended too quickly. I watched the car drive down the street and wave like a fool to them. I feel like a mother waving her son off to college. Later on I will start worrying about his grades, haha.

I sigh again, but this sigh was a thoughtful one. I run quickly into my house and scramble for the keys and run out the door. I know I promised myself that I wouldn't do this, but I can't just leave it at that, I just can't.

I drive down the street like a mad rabbit, dodging cars and peoples (whoopsies) and blow off stop signs and red lights. God, the cops aren't out today, are they? Thank God. I probably would have gotten pulled over like a hundred times if they were. If I were in an action movie, I'd totally have the Bond theme song playing right now.

It had taken me only twenty minutes to get to the airport. If I had driven as a "safe driver" it would have taken me at least forty-five. Now, what gate is he at? Damn it. I inhale deeply and run into the airport with no idea where I am supposed to go. Fuck. Okay Sofia, just look up at the board thingy where they have the planes and destinations and what not and you'll know where to go.

"Flight 165 to Berlin. Is that where they're going? Damn. It's worth a shot." I mumbled to myself. I take off running again into the direction of the Berlin gate. I'm wearing myself out, I already feel breathless. No time to quit now though, I need to find Tom. All I need to do is look for Bills hair and I know Tom will be there. The Kaulitz Twins are insperable.

Hair, hair. Where's the big hair? I look around frantically for Bill's hair. Damn. Damn. Where are they? I walk-run closer to the gate and all i see is a "Now Boarding" sign blinking above the gate. I feel defeated. They're probably already on anyways since they're all famous and what not. Why didn't I just go with them? I smack my hand against my forehead and shake my head in an unvictorious manor. I slowly turn around and bump into some dude.

"Sorry," I mumble without looking up. I try to step aside but two hands caught my shoulders.

"Sofia?" It was Gustav that I ran into. Yes! Yes! I screamed in my head. "You're looking for Tom aren't you?" I nodd quickly and Gustav chuckles. He points behind me. "He was right infront of you the whole time silly."  I couldn't have picked a more perfect time to be spacey.

"Tom!" I shouted out to him. He turned his head and smiled as soon as our eyes met. I ran to him, through the masses of people and jumped up into his arms.

"What are you doing here? I thought you didn't want to be one of those sad women?" He said. I pulled back and smiled, holding back tears.

"I don't care if I'm one of those annoying women," I replied back. "I love you, Tom. I didn't want to leave without saying the final goodbye." The final goodbye. Is this our final goodbye? Is this our final day together as a couple? Is this the very last time that we see each other? I don't want this to be the last time we see each other.

"I really love you, Sofia. I don't want this to be the final goodbye." I hugged him tighter, it was like he was reading my thoughts. My mascara was staining his shirt.

"NOW BOARDING FLIGHT 165 TO BERLIN. NOW BOARDING FLIGHT 165 TO BERLIN." That stupid robotic sounding woman said over the speaker. I rolled my eyes and Tom started to detach from me.

"Wait, " I said, as our bodies detached from one another. We stood in front of each other now, staring into each others eyes. I took his hand in mine. I don't want this to be the last time we hold hands. This is going to be so hard for me.

"I have to go now, Sofia. They can't hold the plane for us." I don't want him to go. What do I do? I can't, I won't leave him. I don't want to and I don't want him to leave me either. I love him, and he loves me. This should be easy right? I mean, if you love someone, shouldn't it be easier to say goodbye? Or harder? No, I can't say goodbye. I don't want too. No, no, no. But he's leaving me anyways.

"LAST CALL FOR FIGHT 165 TO BERLIN. LAST CALL FOR FLIGHT 165 TO BERLIN." That fuckin woman said again.

"Oh, shut up!" I yelled at the loud speaker.

"I have to go now, Sofia. I'll call you, I'll write. I don't want this to end." He said quickly. What to do? What to do? London or Tom? Tom or London? Just decide right now, Sofia. Right now.

"Fine," I said sadly, but a small smirk landed on my face. "I'll see you next week then." Tom's mouth dropped. What? True love completely wipes out London. And I need a few days to pack.

 

I'm still a little "ugh" but Imma try to write this chapter, mostly from memory, I didn't write my dream down and what not...let's see if my memory is all flowy-flowy with me today though I am pissed today and my head hurts, but whatever...and plus, I've been narrarating everything in my head today...lol... I just hope it doesn't suck.

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"So what you're saying is, is that I'm damned or trapped in my body with the possibility of me being a witch?" I asked basically everyone in the room. I leered at Chris, hopeing for a response from the bastard himself, but he just looked absolutely bored. Huh, I wonder why Mr. Evil Reaper himself didn't "poof" out? That's be awesome if I were a witch and when I pushed him I took his super awesome Reaper powers. I don't think I did though. Maybe he just can't leave. Or he could have a crush on wiL Francis (I'm just saying that because wiL is gorgeous, haha. But I think Ville would get jealous if I told him that...you can't blame me for thinking that!).

"Well, on the first part, yes. On the second part...I'm not totally sure. I can't sense a witches aura. I can sense vampires and reapers but not other witches." Atilla confessed. She propped herself up on my bed and crossed her legs pretzel style. She sighed and thought for a moment or two.

"What do we do now?" It was Gerard who spoke. He moved next to Ville though he was most likely talking to Atilla. "Do we just wait until William comes and takes her out of the coma or do we go vampire hunting?" He hesitated when he said 'vampire hunting'.

"I have a friend who may be able to help." She said slowly, cautiously. She cleared her throat and continued. "But, she may only be able to caporialize(sp?) you. Well, long enough to figure out how to put you back." Adam got up and stood next to Gerard and spoke as well.

"How in the hell can we fix her being in a coma? Ask the doctors to find a miracle cure for her or ask God himself? I don't think there's anything we can do." At least he's being honest. And honestly, I don't think there's anything we can do about it either. Suddenly, my hate for William grew stronger.

"Hey, let's not gang up on the witch here okay?" She sighs. "Just let me think about this for a minute." She looked at the notes that she took while Ville was explaining the whole reason why I was in a coma in the first place. She made a few "oooh" and "hmmm" sounds as she read. Then, it looked like a big lightbulb went off in her head, mostly because she straightened up quickly and had a look of awesomeness on her face. "Wait, you said that you had a dream of William kidnapping your kids in the future, right?" I nodd and glance at Ville. He had that look of hate on his face. He's probably thinking of William. "And then right as you told Ville, you were forced into labor most likely by a witch too-"

"So, what does that mean then?" Travis said for the back. I looked at Chris who was glaring at Atilla. I think she actually know how to fix me. At least I hope she does.

"Well, William basically attacked her into labor and kissed her into a coma when she mentioned the future...it's part of this plan. He had to have her go into pre-mature labor for a reason. He didn't have Desdemona yet, that's why he made her go into labor earlier than expected. If he were going to go into the future in the future, she would only be fifteen. If she were sixteen, it would make him feel better about himself when he kidnapped her."

"Why would age matter when it comes to kidnapping my daughter?" I asked astonded. Really, why does it matter? A lot fo kids who are kidnapped are younger, some babies. Why would he feel better if she were sixteen?

"I'm not exactly sure, maybe because when you're fifteen you're a little more oblivious to things than when you're sixteen. I don't know, but I do know is that you have to go to the future to stop him from kidnapping your kids." Atilla said. Wait, she's confusing me. I thought she was going along the lines of 'you have to go into the past and stop yourself from having labor' and stuff. That really threw me off guard.

"Why go into the future? Why not go into the past and stop her from having the kids early?" Ville said. See, even he is on the same thought train as me.

"Because he's expecting that. And he most likely conferred with his older self to ask him what he did to get her in the first place. Am I still confusing you or shall I say more?" Atilla/Trixie said. I think I get it. So, I have to stop him from kidnapping my kids in the future to trick him or something...wait...what?

"Explain again, sorry." I sighed. Atilla rolled her eyes and Ville smiled. I think he gets it.

"Basically what I'm saying is go to the future and stop your kids from getting kidnapped. What you can do afterwards is get help from Reapers or witches or other magical beings to capture him and bring him back to this time. Then, we can get him to reverse whatever it is he did to you and then-"

"Take him to Reaper court, get him humanized again and then kill him." HannaBeth finally said. Hayley nudged her and giggled. I like that idea very much and I think everyone else does (besides Chris).

"Precisely." Atilla smiled.

"So what do we do with him?" Andrew asked, pointing his thumb in the direction of the two Reapers and the bastard Chris. But, we all knew who he was referring to.

"Trav and I can take him to the Reaper prison for awhile. It'll hold him, don't worry. And we can ask the Elders and the Council to start a trial for him immediately." wiL chimed in. Chris sighed and slouched back as far as he could in the chair.

"Sounds good to me." Ville grumbled as he looked down at the ground.

"So it's set then. I'll call my friend and make arrangements for you guys to meet her and do what you need to do." Atilla looked at Gerard, Adam, Andrew and Dave. "I don't mean to sound rude, but she doesn't really like mundies."

They all groaned, Dave especially looked disappointed. "Fine, we'll stay here and keep an eye on Brandy and Kaiden and Desdemona." Gerard suggested. Ville nodded.

"Let's get going then."

 

to be continued...

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Sorry it's a bit short.....

Ugh, I've been so down lately and my creative writing juices just haven't been working correctly. My mind is so clustered with everything going on and I just can't seem to think of anything else but the shit that's been going on. And lately, my dreams have been out of whack. *sighs* I just don't feel like myself lately. Another sign of growing up? Maybe.

*sigh* For one thing, Obama is president. And yes, I was for McCain, mostly because I did not believe anything Barack Obama said. But, I do hope that I am wrong and things turn out for the best for this country under his presidency. And alas, that is where it all began.

I went into school, just like I would normally do, and I found out that my table is back *yay for table* . Then all of my friends who are Obama fanatics came in all "OMG! AREN'T YOU SO HAPPY THAT OBAMA'S PRESIDENT?!" And all I said was "No" and it was only me, Nikki, and Joe who were for McCain and all the Obama friends of mine were all trying to debate with us about it, and the thing is, most of them didn't know shit about Obama and his plans of actions and everything, and I knew more about it. And they were just really frustrating me. And Deanna got mad because she thought I was for Obama and she was all "Wooo" today and I woke up depressed and she's mad at me because I don't like Obama.

And then on my way to second period, I always see the guy I like and for the past couple of weeks he was being nice to me and not ignoring me and now he's ignoring me again. Why is he being evil? It fricken ruined my whole day and I felt crushed all today.

And then when I would see Deanna going to eighth period, she wasn't talking to me at all and I was about to cry and she was like "I'll talk to you later" and I didn't know I was going to have a Chem quiz today or a Math test and I was so depressed today, I couldn't think straight and I have a huge headache and I can't breathe.

I am done now. But this really sucks.

"Never judge a president by his but by his works."

Todays the day. Either we vote in a president that's in his forty's or a slightly older president who is in his seventies. It's your choice, not mine.

Rock that vote and hope that the one you voted for (that you think is best for the country) wins.

 

xoxo Brandy a.k.a. Mikey♥

 

Sowwie I haven't wrote in the last couple days, well i wrote, but not this fic. lol. And that pic of Ville is just so caute! And I hope this isn't shit.

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"So," Atilla said as she placed her open notebook on the ground in front of her feet. She looked at Ville and then at me. "Let's get started then."

"No, wait." Ville said, inhaling deeply, looking at my face (Hayley made me visible to him in the middle of his explanation) and then back at Atilla. "There's...more. And I think you should know this. It might be important." Atilla/Trixie nodded, picking up her notebook and let him continue.

"As I said, she wouldn't wake up. I knew if that she was in a coma that I would see her spirit, when I didn't I thought her spirit was somehow stuck inside of her body. At first, I thought of going to the Elders about everything that had just happened. But something in the back of my mind told me not too. It told me to just stay by her side and by the kids' side and things would play out.

And that voice was a very familiar voice to me, but more to Brandy than anyone. At first, I thought it was just my subconscious telling me what to do and pointing me in the right direction. But the voice had gotten stronger within my mind and within each minute. Then it sounded like the voice wasn't coming from inside my head. Brandy was still making no progress and I guess she wasn't "out" of her body yet. Gerard was watching her too, so I had decided to go see the kids and hopefully figure out who that voice was.

The nurses let me, that day, touch Des and Kaiden's little hands and little fingers. I had only wished that Brandy was there with me to experience that. Though, we had planned to actually have them full-term and everything, but it didn't. The whole time, I felt as if someone was watching me, in pain and sadness. I didn't want to leave Desdemona and Kaiden, but I knew that they wouldn't be hurt. For some odd reason, and I really don't want this to be taken too seriously, I felt Sofia's presense everywhere I went today. She was watching over us. And, I think, she was the woman in our house and in the room when Brandy was giving birth. But, I think she was forced into everything she did, because the look on her face and her aura screamed just that.

"So, what does this have to do with everything?" Atilla asked curiously. She put her notebook and pencil on her lap and put her focus on him.

"I was thinking that maybe William had retrived her from the Afterlife or-"

"Or she was in a coma like me." I finished, catching Ville's train of thought. Maybe that is what happened. Maybe se was never actually dead. But why would William tell us that she was? Why did Sofia tell me that she was? iS she bond to them somehow?

"Again, what does this have to do with Brandy's situation?" Atilla asked logically. Everyone all looked at Ville, wondering the same thing, or shocked at the possibility of Aofia still being alive. But why wouldn't she come back to us? Why did she leave?

"Because if it was William-not Chris- who put Sofia in the coma, like he did with Brandy, and if he brought her out of the coma, then wouldn't he be the only one to bring Brandy out of it?" Ville said. Atilla shook her head no and stood up. She started to pace her little corner as she started to explain to us about her magic.

"No, not necessarily. You see, my magic is strong enough to bring her out of the coma, even if I wasn't the one to put her in it. If William is stronger than me, of course, then yes, he'd be the only one to bring her out of it. But, just by you explaining things about how she got into the coma in the first place, he does't seem that strong of a Reaper at all." Atilla paused, then continued. "Just because he can put people into a coma, it doesn't mean he's stronger than you or I. It just means that he's clever."

"All right, so shall we try now?" I asked, trying to get my two sense in. Atilla smirked and looked at Ville to see if there's anymore than he needs to say.

"Just one more thing," he sighed, as did everyone else. Atilla picked up her pencil and notebook and waited for him to speak. "Before I found Chris in the room and before I ran out of the room. Brandy had kissed me, and I felt it like I felt her touch me before. But this time it was different-" he paused and looked at me. "When she kissed me, I saw her image flicker in front of me. Like she was flickering in and out of reality. And then I saw her hand move. I mean her hand on her body. It was like she was pointing something out to me or trying to touch something," He took a deep breath in and exhaled slowly. "And when I entered the room with Gerard, Adam, Andrew, and Dave. We entered and I didnt automatically see Chris, I saw him fall out of the air. I guessed then that he was fighting Brandy or someone else. But when a Reaper wants to be invisible to someone, it sticks until the Reaper says, or does, otherwise..." He looked at me wuickly, then back at Atilla. "Only a witch can bring a Reaper out of invisibility."

"So, you're saying she's a witch?" Gerard finally chimed in, standing up by my bedside. Ville shrugged as if he wasn't sure.

"It doesn't matter if she is a witch or not, I guess. Let's just try this now, is that all right? Is there anything else I need to know?" Ville shook his head no. and buried his hands in his pockets. Suddenly, I sprung out of my seat and threw my ghostly arms around Ville, he put his arms around me too.

"Don't worry," he whispered in my ear. "You'll be in your body soon and we can hug without people thinking i'm hugging air." He always makes me smile.

"Okay," Atilla said, beckoning me by her side. She was at the side of my bed now, holding the hand of my lifeless body. "You need to hold my hand. And yes I can feel you because I'm magical. The mundies can't, but that's because they're not magical." Dave rolled his eyes and Atilla just smiled.

I went to her side and grasped her hand. She had her notebook resting on my stomach. She closed her eyes as if she were lost in thought. She was muttering something under her breath that I couldn't understand. I think it was latin, I'm not sure. My hand started to tingle like hell and I looked at Ville in panic. But, he didn't see my facial expression, he just watched. I felt Atilla start to get frustrated, the muttering under her breath had got angrier and she was saying it all in one breath. She tried again, but nothing happened.

"DAMMIT!" she shouted in frustation. She let go of both of my hands and smacked her hand against the wall in anger. "Why isn't it working?" She finally calmed down a little. I can see why she's frustrated, I guess.

"What do you mean it's not working?" Ville finally said. His eyes were wide and flickering between me, her, and my lifeless self.

"Are you sure you didn't leave anything out? Did you tell me everything?" She said in a hiss.

"Yes, of course." Ville said quickly.

"Okay then, we have a problem." She said as cooly as she can. She looked at me and then at Gerard. Why at Gerard? "Either William is stronger than any of us could imagine or-" she paused. "Or she became one of the damned. And if either of them is true, then William is the only one who can reverse this."

 

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I hope it isn't crap o.O

If someone says "Is this okay?" You say...?
Hearts Burst Into Fire- Bullet For My Valentine

How would you describe yourself?
Mama- My Chemical Romance (I'm a bad mother?!)

What do you like in a guy?
Hallelujah- Paramore (that makes no sense but okay)

How do you feel today?

Born For This- Paramore ( I feel great)

What is your life's purpose?
Tome To Dance- Panic At The Disco (My life purpose:to dance)

What is your motto?

white Wedding- Aiden (wooo?)

What do your friends think of you?

The Bitter Uprising- The Classic Crime

What do you think of your parents?

Thats What You Get- Paramore (OMG, Paramore needs to stop sending me mixed signals! lol)

What do you think about very often?

Imaginary- Evanescence (ZOMG, it's like you know...)

What is 2+2?

The Ripper- The Used (okay class, 2+2= The Ripper...you got that? OKay 4+4=...)

What do you think of your best friend?

In Love And Lonely- HIM (awww!!!! I shall go hugz now)

What do you think of the person you like?

Don't Fear The Reaper- HIM (oh sweet jesus)

What is your life story?

Going UNder- Evanescence (yesh)

What do you want to be when you grow up?

We Come Out At Night -Avenged Sevenfold (...vampire?...I'm already one though...)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Die Romanctic- Aiden (nuh-uh! Not true...I just stop breathing okay!!)

What will you dance to at your wedding?

Genetic Design For Dying- Aiden (*sighs*)

What will they play at your funeral?
Vampires Will Never Hurt You- MCR (but I twill never die because I am a vampire)

What is your hobby?
Tear You Apart- She Wants Revenge (wow...I'm really a whore then...lol)

What is your biggest fear?
I Wish You Were Here- Incubus (I'm afraid of the person that I wish was here with me...that's makes sense)

What is your biggest secret?
Ransom- Escape The Fate (no comment...lol)

What do you think of your friends?
Spit You Out- Bullet For My Valentine (no...they're more of 'That Green Gentlemen'...I wuvs my friends)

What will you post this as?
Hurt Me- Aiden (okay)